Our wonderful little boy turned 7 months old the other day...how is that possible? I love the way it feels to say,"our little boy."
I can't imagine life without him. It is as if we have been 3 forever. For so long we dreamt about what it would be like to have a child in our prescence but had no idea the profound effect he would have on us.
This last month we experienced alot of firsts. We had our first swim lesson, and I must say Jaid is a natural. Kicking under the water without any instruction to do so. Splashing and moving his arms in a way that would make you think this kid has been in the pool before. Jaid went to his first concert...Big Bad Voodoo Daddy and he LOVED it. Jaid was exposed to many first solid foods this last month. To say he is a great eater is an understatement... so far he likes everything. He is sitting up by himself for the first time, seeing everything from a different perspective. It is a wonder to watch him explore, feel, taste, and play. Each day it is something new.
Unfortunately Jaid got a bacterial infection last week. His excema was getting very bad in the back of his leg and there was a little pimple like thing next to it so we decided to take him in. Thank goodness because it turns out he has MRSA which is a bacteria - staph infection. They say it is transferred skin to skin or a carrier may have it in there nose without even knowing. Gross. Apparently because his excema got so bad- it penetrated the area. So we are nursing him back to himself. Actually he's been great through it all...he's a trooper. It hurts me more than it hurts him!
I think about my favorite time with Jaid and every time is my favorite time. My favorite time is when he awakes in the moring and we hear him talking and playing with himself. My favorite time is when we walk into his room first thing in the morning and he just looks up at us with a huge beautiful smile. My favorite time is when Jesse brings him into bed to cuddle after his first bottle. My favorite it time his when we set him up in his play area in the morning. My favorite time is when I get home from work, Daddy is holding him and he stretches his arms out for me to take him into my arms and sqeeeeeeeeze him. My favorite time is when he is in his high chair and he is feeding himself with his spoon. My favorite time is when we give Jaid his bath and he splashes with all his toys. My favorite time is when he has his last bottle and we begin our nightly routine. My favorite time is when I read to him at night and he holds the book with interest until I am finished. Then I kiss his forehead, say "night night" and our eyes lock. Without exchanging any more words I begin to walk out. We both know it is safe to leave one another because when we awake tomorrow my favorite time will come again.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
UPDATE
Jaiden celebrated his first 4th of July (the 3 of us had our matching Old Navy t-shirts on)by enjoying a bbq with friends. Before the actual fireworks went off we were home and Jaiden was in bed. We figured he was a little too young and that the noise might bother his ears... next year.
Jesse went on a 5 day fishing trip...guess what I have been eating since his return? You got it...fish...fish tacos...fish and chips....fish fillet....and more fish! My Mom came to hang out with me while Jess was gone. We had so much fun and it was great that she got to enjoy alot of time with her grandson. One night we were watching Jaiden lay on his back and play on his blanket and before we knew it he had rolled to the side, got that one big thigh in the front of the other leg, and pushed himself over on his tummy. He just looked up at us like, hey did you just see that? Mom and I were screaming...he must of thought we were nuts...and we were. Then we decided to see if he would do it again..and wamo...right before our very eyes again he rolled from his back to his tummy. I was definitely a proud Momma!
On July 12th our Jaiden turned 6 months old...how is that possible? It seems like just yesterday we were home from the Ukraine childless. I was reading some of the posts from the Ukraine blog the other day, ( I like to torture myself sometimes) and so many of you left comments encouraging us not to give up , that our child was out there, and we would be 3. How right you were. And here we are with a 6 month old.
Late in the afternoon on the 12th we took the video camera out for the taping of Jaiden's first solid food experience. We sat him in his chair, put a big dab of rice cereal on the his tray for him to play with. He was not sure what to do with it but he was absolutely sure what to do with the spoon. He's brilliant what can I say. First I put a little on his lips and he mushed it around for a minute, then swallowed...another tiny spoonful in his mouth...no look of disgust whatsoever only a look like geeze it's about time you feed me some solid food! Then the next spoonful he actually grabbed the spoon and stuck it right in his mouth. And so the fight of who gets the spoon begins. He now basically feeds himself! We watch the video over and over...and laugh.
I know this will be surprise but Jaiden has 2 teef on the bottom. They are barely out but they are there.
Two days ago we gave Jaiden a sippy cup. OMG...he grabbed on and did not let go, drinking like a big boy. Even if he could not get any water out of it he was entertaining himself by holding it, and chomping on the tip. When I went to take it away from him he screamed...yep that's right...screamed. It was the first time I have ever taken anything away from him and gotten that reaction. So immediately I gave it back to him...I mean I only took it away cause I figured he was done with it...how wrong was I... and he told me so! When the time came a little later to take it away, I just distracted him with something else and he was fine. He never even realized the sippy cup was gone.
Jesse went on a 5 day fishing trip...guess what I have been eating since his return? You got it...fish...fish tacos...fish and chips....fish fillet....and more fish! My Mom came to hang out with me while Jess was gone. We had so much fun and it was great that she got to enjoy alot of time with her grandson. One night we were watching Jaiden lay on his back and play on his blanket and before we knew it he had rolled to the side, got that one big thigh in the front of the other leg, and pushed himself over on his tummy. He just looked up at us like, hey did you just see that? Mom and I were screaming...he must of thought we were nuts...and we were. Then we decided to see if he would do it again..and wamo...right before our very eyes again he rolled from his back to his tummy. I was definitely a proud Momma!
On July 12th our Jaiden turned 6 months old...how is that possible? It seems like just yesterday we were home from the Ukraine childless. I was reading some of the posts from the Ukraine blog the other day, ( I like to torture myself sometimes) and so many of you left comments encouraging us not to give up , that our child was out there, and we would be 3. How right you were. And here we are with a 6 month old.
Late in the afternoon on the 12th we took the video camera out for the taping of Jaiden's first solid food experience. We sat him in his chair, put a big dab of rice cereal on the his tray for him to play with. He was not sure what to do with it but he was absolutely sure what to do with the spoon. He's brilliant what can I say. First I put a little on his lips and he mushed it around for a minute, then swallowed...another tiny spoonful in his mouth...no look of disgust whatsoever only a look like geeze it's about time you feed me some solid food! Then the next spoonful he actually grabbed the spoon and stuck it right in his mouth. And so the fight of who gets the spoon begins. He now basically feeds himself! We watch the video over and over...and laugh.
I know this will be surprise but Jaiden has 2 teef on the bottom. They are barely out but they are there.
Two days ago we gave Jaiden a sippy cup. OMG...he grabbed on and did not let go, drinking like a big boy. Even if he could not get any water out of it he was entertaining himself by holding it, and chomping on the tip. When I went to take it away from him he screamed...yep that's right...screamed. It was the first time I have ever taken anything away from him and gotten that reaction. So immediately I gave it back to him...I mean I only took it away cause I figured he was done with it...how wrong was I... and he told me so! When the time came a little later to take it away, I just distracted him with something else and he was fine. He never even realized the sippy cup was gone.
Each day parenthood brings new experiences. The three of us learn, teach, and love constantly and freely. It's a wonderful thing!
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Jesse's first Father's Day!
Each day brings wonderment, excitement and extended joy with Jaiden. From the time he awakes in the morning until the time he lays his heavy and I mean heavy head down in his crib.
We have our schedule and for the most part we keep pretty true to it. It seems to make everyone happy and it's easier for all of us. Jaiden usually awakes around 7am or 7:30am always with a big smile. He has a few long naps during the day and as long as we are on schedule he has his last bottle which is his 5th bottle for the day around 7pm or 7:30pm. He is in bed by 8pm.
We have our ritual... I put him down, read him his book, "Goodnight Moon", kiss him goodnight, shut his curtain, turn on his little light, swaddle him( yes he likes to be swaddled...still) give him his Binky, turn on his mobile, kiss him goodnight again and walk out. Asleep he goes...until morning. Sometimes he wakes around 4am for his Binky and then back to sleep until he really wakes up which is around 7am.
Jesse has his morning ritual with him. He feeds him at 7am, sings to him, plays with him and does his guy thing with him. I hear both of them laughing and laughing bringing a huge smile to my face. It is in those moments that the world is simply perfect.
We celebrated Jesse's first Father's Day. Oh how I wanted it to be extra special and apparently I succeeded. I let Jess stay in bed and I fed Jaiden at 7am, and then I brought him into bed with us and we all hung out in the big white puffy cloud. Jesse opened his gifts and Jaiden helped by ripping the paper. How fun is that? The day continued to be so much fun celebrating all day with my parents and then Jesse's parents. At one point in the morning I thought to myself how glorious... Jesse is loving up his little son and by the look in his son's eyes you could tell he was loving up his Daddy. Daddy... what a great word...Jesse is now officially a Daddy. Sometimes I still refer to him as MacDaddy...cause Daddy's got it goin on!
We have our schedule and for the most part we keep pretty true to it. It seems to make everyone happy and it's easier for all of us. Jaiden usually awakes around 7am or 7:30am always with a big smile. He has a few long naps during the day and as long as we are on schedule he has his last bottle which is his 5th bottle for the day around 7pm or 7:30pm. He is in bed by 8pm.
We have our ritual... I put him down, read him his book, "Goodnight Moon", kiss him goodnight, shut his curtain, turn on his little light, swaddle him( yes he likes to be swaddled...still) give him his Binky, turn on his mobile, kiss him goodnight again and walk out. Asleep he goes...until morning. Sometimes he wakes around 4am for his Binky and then back to sleep until he really wakes up which is around 7am.
Jesse has his morning ritual with him. He feeds him at 7am, sings to him, plays with him and does his guy thing with him. I hear both of them laughing and laughing bringing a huge smile to my face. It is in those moments that the world is simply perfect.
We celebrated Jesse's first Father's Day. Oh how I wanted it to be extra special and apparently I succeeded. I let Jess stay in bed and I fed Jaiden at 7am, and then I brought him into bed with us and we all hung out in the big white puffy cloud. Jesse opened his gifts and Jaiden helped by ripping the paper. How fun is that? The day continued to be so much fun celebrating all day with my parents and then Jesse's parents. At one point in the morning I thought to myself how glorious... Jesse is loving up his little son and by the look in his son's eyes you could tell he was loving up his Daddy. Daddy... what a great word...Jesse is now officially a Daddy. Sometimes I still refer to him as MacDaddy...cause Daddy's got it goin on!
Monday, June 15, 2009
5 MONTH BD
Where has the time gone?...can't believe the last time I wrote Jaiden was just 4 months old and on last Friday he turned 5 months old. He is more delicious than I ever imagined, and I still eat him every chance I get.
This last month has been so much fun. The constant giggling, rolling over, yes he has rolled over from his tummy to his back. Still working on going from his back to his tummy but it ain't easy when you have such a heavy thigh! We bought a Bumbo chair for Jaiden to sit in. The first time we sat him in it, we had to squeeze his left thigh between the leg separator because it would not fit in any other way. The funniest was when we took him out. I picked him up and the chair stuck to his bottom...like glue! We were busting up. He joins us at the dinner table in his big boy chair, sitting up tall, and eye balling us while we stuff our faces. He's going to like food, which we are going to introduce him to next month. Our pediatrician is big on not starting food until 6 months unless the child is having trouble sleeping or needs to gain weight. Thankfully we do not have a problem with either one.
Just the other day, Jaiden found his voice. He will lay on his back and screech as loud and long as he can, and then he waits for us to do it back to him, so he can do it again. We play this over and over again...both Jess and I can't help but crack up. He also gets laughing for a long time, and we laugh with him and just as hard. Thinking about it makes me laugh.
This weekend my dear nephew Zach who was the Jaiden connection was married. We traveled up North for the weekend to celebrate. Zach's Mother-in-law who was also our connection to Jaiden got to see Jaiden and she had not seen him since he was 8 days old. It was wonderful to see the Minnesota bunch. The wedding was absolutely magical...held at the Firestone Winery...and Zach's bride Darcie was stunningly beautiful. Everyone had an amazing time.
Our first overnight weekend with the little guy went very well except for the first night. Not sure if it was completely him, or both he and I. Neither one of us slept very well that night, I guess it took us a day to get into our groove. No one could tell that Jaiden didn't sleep well cause he was as happy as could be, now for me, that's a different story. The bags under my eyes said it all, I tried to cover them up with make-up but not sure it really worked. And the reason I say this is more than one person said to me, " you look tired." Not a good sign.
Each day I fall more deeply in love with little Jaid...how can I love him more than yesterday? I suppose my heart is growing and expanding. Never knew this kind of love before...it's deep, raw, electric, explosive and so much more.
My guess is Jaiden is now close to 22lbs and growing in length for sure. We are not going to a 5 month appointment so I will not get a true weight and length until next month. All I know is that Jaiden is our bundle of joy!
This last month has been so much fun. The constant giggling, rolling over, yes he has rolled over from his tummy to his back. Still working on going from his back to his tummy but it ain't easy when you have such a heavy thigh! We bought a Bumbo chair for Jaiden to sit in. The first time we sat him in it, we had to squeeze his left thigh between the leg separator because it would not fit in any other way. The funniest was when we took him out. I picked him up and the chair stuck to his bottom...like glue! We were busting up. He joins us at the dinner table in his big boy chair, sitting up tall, and eye balling us while we stuff our faces. He's going to like food, which we are going to introduce him to next month. Our pediatrician is big on not starting food until 6 months unless the child is having trouble sleeping or needs to gain weight. Thankfully we do not have a problem with either one.
Just the other day, Jaiden found his voice. He will lay on his back and screech as loud and long as he can, and then he waits for us to do it back to him, so he can do it again. We play this over and over again...both Jess and I can't help but crack up. He also gets laughing for a long time, and we laugh with him and just as hard. Thinking about it makes me laugh.
This weekend my dear nephew Zach who was the Jaiden connection was married. We traveled up North for the weekend to celebrate. Zach's Mother-in-law who was also our connection to Jaiden got to see Jaiden and she had not seen him since he was 8 days old. It was wonderful to see the Minnesota bunch. The wedding was absolutely magical...held at the Firestone Winery...and Zach's bride Darcie was stunningly beautiful. Everyone had an amazing time.
Our first overnight weekend with the little guy went very well except for the first night. Not sure if it was completely him, or both he and I. Neither one of us slept very well that night, I guess it took us a day to get into our groove. No one could tell that Jaiden didn't sleep well cause he was as happy as could be, now for me, that's a different story. The bags under my eyes said it all, I tried to cover them up with make-up but not sure it really worked. And the reason I say this is more than one person said to me, " you look tired." Not a good sign.
Each day I fall more deeply in love with little Jaid...how can I love him more than yesterday? I suppose my heart is growing and expanding. Never knew this kind of love before...it's deep, raw, electric, explosive and so much more.
My guess is Jaiden is now close to 22lbs and growing in length for sure. We are not going to a 5 month appointment so I will not get a true weight and length until next month. All I know is that Jaiden is our bundle of joy!
Thursday, May 14, 2009
4 Months Old
Jaiden turned four months old on May 12th...can you believe it? Seems almost impossible!
It came so fast...everyone told us it would go fast and boy were they right.
In the last month we have watched him grow both in size, and developmentally. He now weighs 19lbs 1.4oz and is 26in long. One healthy boy we have! He grabs everything, giggles contagiously for a long time, rolls over on his side but just can't quite get his thigh over, puts everything in his mouth, sizes it up and then squeals. I suppose his squeal length and loudness depends on how much he likes something, because I can not imagine it's for the taste of the plastic, or cloth.
His thighs have gotten much more meatier if that is possible. When he is naked except for his diaper it looks like his diaper is too tight around his thigh because it bulges out the size of an orange. A big yummy extra ball of meat! And what does Mommy do? Eat them, eat them and eat them!
A few weeks ago I told Jess that when we put Jaiden down at night we should just put his passie in and walk away, usually we stay with him for a few minutes until he falls asleep. It was a Thursday night and we both went to put him down, we put his passie in, whispered, "good night, sweet dreams" and left the room. Our hearts tugged a bit wondering if he was thinking, oh sure my parents just walk out on me. We waited and waited anticipating that he would let us know with some kind of vocal opposition that he was not happy...but to our wonderful surprise our little one put himself to sleep without a peep. Of course we were thrilled and still continue this successful routine. However with that said, the week Jaiden was sick he would wake himself up at night coughing and wheezing and I would quickly run in and give him his passie and make sure he was okay. This went on for about 1 1/2 weeks because he was sick. Without realizing it I had created a new routine for my little one which took on a look like this. Sleep by 8pm, wake up at 1am, 2am, 3am, 4am. Each time he would wake up I would run in and give him his passie and he would go right back to sleep but only for about 1 hour when he would wake up again...can you say Chinese torture? Just when I would fall into a deep sleep I would hear him. We have been working on getting back to sleeping through the night without waking up...we are almost there! I still would not have done anything different when Jaiden was sick. As his Mommy I wanted him to know that I would be there any time any hour.
Jesse and I still can not believe we are home with our 4 month old. Sometimes we'll be sitting in the living room talking or for that matter anywhere talking about how unbelievable it is that we now have a 4 month old.
Believe it or not we still fight over who's changing his diaper and who's feeding him his bottle...both of us loving every minute of it. Jesse and I each have a distinct relationship with Jaiden, and Jaiden knows it. Jesse gets Jaiden laughing and giggling all the time. He flies him around the house in his arms, talking "superhero" language. He bounces him high, and exercises him plenty, you know dude kind of stuff. And I, well I'm sweet, gentle and playful in a girlie kind of way. Jaiden doesn't play favorites he just takes it all in with a smile!
It came so fast...everyone told us it would go fast and boy were they right.
In the last month we have watched him grow both in size, and developmentally. He now weighs 19lbs 1.4oz and is 26in long. One healthy boy we have! He grabs everything, giggles contagiously for a long time, rolls over on his side but just can't quite get his thigh over, puts everything in his mouth, sizes it up and then squeals. I suppose his squeal length and loudness depends on how much he likes something, because I can not imagine it's for the taste of the plastic, or cloth.
His thighs have gotten much more meatier if that is possible. When he is naked except for his diaper it looks like his diaper is too tight around his thigh because it bulges out the size of an orange. A big yummy extra ball of meat! And what does Mommy do? Eat them, eat them and eat them!
A few weeks ago I told Jess that when we put Jaiden down at night we should just put his passie in and walk away, usually we stay with him for a few minutes until he falls asleep. It was a Thursday night and we both went to put him down, we put his passie in, whispered, "good night, sweet dreams" and left the room. Our hearts tugged a bit wondering if he was thinking, oh sure my parents just walk out on me. We waited and waited anticipating that he would let us know with some kind of vocal opposition that he was not happy...but to our wonderful surprise our little one put himself to sleep without a peep. Of course we were thrilled and still continue this successful routine. However with that said, the week Jaiden was sick he would wake himself up at night coughing and wheezing and I would quickly run in and give him his passie and make sure he was okay. This went on for about 1 1/2 weeks because he was sick. Without realizing it I had created a new routine for my little one which took on a look like this. Sleep by 8pm, wake up at 1am, 2am, 3am, 4am. Each time he would wake up I would run in and give him his passie and he would go right back to sleep but only for about 1 hour when he would wake up again...can you say Chinese torture? Just when I would fall into a deep sleep I would hear him. We have been working on getting back to sleeping through the night without waking up...we are almost there! I still would not have done anything different when Jaiden was sick. As his Mommy I wanted him to know that I would be there any time any hour.
Jesse and I still can not believe we are home with our 4 month old. Sometimes we'll be sitting in the living room talking or for that matter anywhere talking about how unbelievable it is that we now have a 4 month old.
Believe it or not we still fight over who's changing his diaper and who's feeding him his bottle...both of us loving every minute of it. Jesse and I each have a distinct relationship with Jaiden, and Jaiden knows it. Jesse gets Jaiden laughing and giggling all the time. He flies him around the house in his arms, talking "superhero" language. He bounces him high, and exercises him plenty, you know dude kind of stuff. And I, well I'm sweet, gentle and playful in a girlie kind of way. Jaiden doesn't play favorites he just takes it all in with a smile!
Monday, May 11, 2009
My 1st Mother's Day
How I have longed to celebrate Mother's Day, not because of the special recognition nor the gifts but because it would finally mean that I am a Mommy.
The day was special. As soon as Jesse heard Jaiden he ran to get him and bring him to me in bed. His beautiful flirty eyes penetrated my heart and with his big bright smile he said..."Happy Mother's Day!" For a single minute Jaiden and I connected on a different dimension where he knew that this day symbolically meant more to me than almost any other day. It was a true celebration.
I know this comes as a surprise but I did not buy Jaiden a new outfit for this day (what's wrong with me?), however he wore a onesie that said,"My Mom's tattoo is bigger than yours."
I received an out pour of cards from friends and family in addition to many e-mails and text messages all wishing me a wonderful Mother's Day! Amazing. Don't worry you all, everyone is off the hook next year and the years following. I know it was because it was my 1st!
I even received a text a few days prior to Mother's Day from Kelsie wishing me a Happy almost Mother's Day. I cried. She is really amazing! I thought about her for a long time. Wondering what her heart must feel like on this particular Mother's Day. Was she going to reflect on the positive or settle into a black darkness? I can only hope that her heart was full knowing that the child she gave birth to was in the arms of his Mommy being loved up all day long.
We relished the day in the presence of our Mother's...celebrating.
The day was special. As soon as Jesse heard Jaiden he ran to get him and bring him to me in bed. His beautiful flirty eyes penetrated my heart and with his big bright smile he said..."Happy Mother's Day!" For a single minute Jaiden and I connected on a different dimension where he knew that this day symbolically meant more to me than almost any other day. It was a true celebration.
I know this comes as a surprise but I did not buy Jaiden a new outfit for this day (what's wrong with me?), however he wore a onesie that said,"My Mom's tattoo is bigger than yours."
I received an out pour of cards from friends and family in addition to many e-mails and text messages all wishing me a wonderful Mother's Day! Amazing. Don't worry you all, everyone is off the hook next year and the years following. I know it was because it was my 1st!
I even received a text a few days prior to Mother's Day from Kelsie wishing me a Happy almost Mother's Day. I cried. She is really amazing! I thought about her for a long time. Wondering what her heart must feel like on this particular Mother's Day. Was she going to reflect on the positive or settle into a black darkness? I can only hope that her heart was full knowing that the child she gave birth to was in the arms of his Mommy being loved up all day long.
We relished the day in the presence of our Mother's...celebrating.
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Aching heart
For the first time my heart aches as a Mommy.
A week or so ago I had the flu that turned into a cold. I actually NEVER get sick, but when I do I go down hard. I was home last Thursday and Friday hardly lifting my head off the pillow.
I tried my hardest not to breath on my beautiful little boy, and not to kiss him for over a week which was pure torture.
Unfortunately the bug that I had I passed onto Jaiden. Last Friday I could hear a slight wheeze and by Saturday he just was not himself. I tried to get him into the see the Doctor on Saturday at the day clinic but they had no appointments. Jess and I had discussed his sickness but at that point decided not to take him to urgent care- to ride it out.
By Sunday night he was coughing so hard it hurt me, and wheezing terribly. My heart ached. I was asthmatic as a child and I know how terrible it feels not to be able to breath. I wanted so badly to comfort him, touching him in a way that my hands covered his weak body as he layed still. I asked the powers that be to please let me take his pain away. With each breath I took standing over him, I tried my hardest to suck the poison out of him...but no luck. He just got worse.
Jesse took him to the Doctors on Monday morning, and thank goodness she did not look at him like why the heck did you not bring him in any earlier. She calmed the parental fear immediately and reassured him that it was a viral infection and not pneumonia. She gave him a breathing treatment and sent him home with a nebulizer which we have been giving him every 4 hours. The first time we gave it to him, the apparatus scared him. I tried to show him what it was all about before putting the mask on him but sadly it was not helpful. We have been giving him breathing treatments for a few days now and it has gotten much easier. He is definitely a trooper and not a cry baby. Yes he cries a little but I would cry too.
This experience has been different than any experience before and I am sure we will have many other new experiences as Mommy andDaddy.
When I came home tonight I could not hold myself back from my sweet boy and kissed him over and over and over again.
Jesse and I put our son down to sleep just a little while ago knowing he is getting better and tomorrow will be a better day!
A week or so ago I had the flu that turned into a cold. I actually NEVER get sick, but when I do I go down hard. I was home last Thursday and Friday hardly lifting my head off the pillow.
I tried my hardest not to breath on my beautiful little boy, and not to kiss him for over a week which was pure torture.
Unfortunately the bug that I had I passed onto Jaiden. Last Friday I could hear a slight wheeze and by Saturday he just was not himself. I tried to get him into the see the Doctor on Saturday at the day clinic but they had no appointments. Jess and I had discussed his sickness but at that point decided not to take him to urgent care- to ride it out.
By Sunday night he was coughing so hard it hurt me, and wheezing terribly. My heart ached. I was asthmatic as a child and I know how terrible it feels not to be able to breath. I wanted so badly to comfort him, touching him in a way that my hands covered his weak body as he layed still. I asked the powers that be to please let me take his pain away. With each breath I took standing over him, I tried my hardest to suck the poison out of him...but no luck. He just got worse.
Jesse took him to the Doctors on Monday morning, and thank goodness she did not look at him like why the heck did you not bring him in any earlier. She calmed the parental fear immediately and reassured him that it was a viral infection and not pneumonia. She gave him a breathing treatment and sent him home with a nebulizer which we have been giving him every 4 hours. The first time we gave it to him, the apparatus scared him. I tried to show him what it was all about before putting the mask on him but sadly it was not helpful. We have been giving him breathing treatments for a few days now and it has gotten much easier. He is definitely a trooper and not a cry baby. Yes he cries a little but I would cry too.
This experience has been different than any experience before and I am sure we will have many other new experiences as Mommy andDaddy.
When I came home tonight I could not hold myself back from my sweet boy and kissed him over and over and over again.
Jesse and I put our son down to sleep just a little while ago knowing he is getting better and tomorrow will be a better day!
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