Let 2009 bring change, hope and an abundance of joy and peace.
Jess and I talked to Kelsie today and wished her a Happy New Year. I hope she knows how happy she has already made this year for us. I imagine she does, but not to the deep depths of our core. It is strange how freely our hearts are open when only a short while ago the pain restricted even a thought of vulnerability.
We took out two small suitcases today and have made a commitment to pack this weekend. I suppose it must feel like packing the "overnight bag" to take to the hospital. We will be ready to go as soon as the "phone call"comes. As surreal as it is, it feels absolutely right.
To get to this point it took several pieces of a puzzle to be put together perfectly. First of all it took my nephew Zach to get engaged to Darci and move to Minnesota. Then it took Zach's soon to be Mother-in-law Deb to think of us when she ran into Kelsie at her Mothers 90th birthday party. Then it took Deb and Zach to talk about it, Zach to have the courage to call his Mother (my sister) even though he was a bit reluctant and for good reason, and then it took my sister Gaby to take a chance and call me and put it out there.Gaby said she never thought twice about it, she just picked up the phone and dialed! Unbelievable! I must also say that Jesse gets credit for breaking down my brick wall, bringing me to a place of less resistance where I could see more clearly and believe just like him that this was a "sign."
Believing that everything happens exactly the way it supposed to...Happy New Year!
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OH HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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MOM AND DAD ASH
Happy New Year, Dear Nikki and Jesse,
ReplyDeleteIt will be a wonderful year with a new baby in the family and a new family in the White House.
And I love the idea of sharing January 6 as a birthday with my great nephew....or a day close by.
The beginning of the year....great time to be born.
Love you...Holding our breath.
Love,
Aunt Micki aka Auntie M.
Nikki,
ReplyDeleteI am a good friend of Elena's and have only met you a few times but have been following your story from the beginning. I cannot tell you how happy I am that your dream of being a mother is finally coming true. My family has been praying for you. This is a blessing for everyone involved. I hope to meet your little boy one day. Good luck with your travels.
Kathy Fuller
I think that one of the most significant things here is the realization that you don't have control over everything...and that is not always a bad thing! The next significant thing is that even though many things had to fall into place to make the connections happen, it all started because you put this dream of parenthood out there, you nurtured it, you were willing to go to the gates of hell for it and even when you were broken and not able to breathe, you kept holding on to it tight in your heart and never gave up. To know that this little boy will be raised by people such as you, should also be the thing that Kelsie is holding tight in her heart. There is probably some drama still to come…but stay focused, know that everything still happens for a reason and it will all work out.
ReplyDeleteWe're all ready to celebrate "Kisko's" arrival. I'll even turn on my CELL PHONE (shocking I know) to be sure that I get the call that you need a ride to the airport…an offer I don't make to just anyone (turning on the cell phone not the ride!)!!
Love, J
Yikes the time is now. I just can't wait for you to go and come back as a family of three.
ReplyDeleteDad and I are also just waiting for that special ring a ding ding.
Love ya
Happy New Year to you two.
ReplyDeleteOur positive thoughts are with you. We saw the new baby "Paul" on New Year's Eve and are anxiously awaiting your new arrival.
Thank you for setting up the blog again so we can follow along.
Love you,
Sylvia, Steve and Ali
Hi Guys,
ReplyDeleteSo glad to see you blogging again!
As you know, there are no accidents in life, this little boy chose you to be his parents and he was going to get the word to you any way he needed to, even if it involved an ARMY of people! *smile
My excitement and JOY for you is beyond words. This is the best way to start the New Year...as a new family ~ and you know I am only a phone call or email away if you need me!
With blessings and WARM hugs,
Meg (and Hayden)
There is nothing like the smell of a newborn baby...I cant wait for your noses to inhale that sweet smell and you will remember how wonderful it felt to hold your little baby for the first time all the days of your life. Happy New Year to you and let all the dark of 2008 slip away into the bright white lights of 2009! You are almost there....
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