THANKSGIVING

The week leading up to Thanksgiving was an extremely emotional week for me. I could not pull myself together. I would think about what I was thankful for this year and I would get overwhelmed and instantly tears would well up in my eyes, and my breathing would start to go awry. I had absolutely no control, it was as if my body was infiltrated with a deep rooted pumping drug right into my veins. It completely took me over. I was at the grocery store one night, just waiting in line with a million other people and tears came streaming down my face. I believe that a magazine cover with a Mother and child on it prompted this kind of reaction. All I could do was pray that the guy staring at me didn't know it was just a magazine! I was leaving for work one morning and my beautiful son Jaid hugged me as he has done before but for some reason it through me into an emotional explosion and I sat in my car...crying. Happy uncontrollable tears. By the time I got to work I looked like shit. One night when I was feeding Jaid and we were playing the dessert game, tears were rolling down my face, and he could not figure out why Mommy's face was wet and black stuff was running down her face. It was not pretty whatsoever. Jess said something nice to me in the morning before we started our Thanksgiving day and again I lost it. Geeze he was just saying that my outfit was cute and I went into a crying frenzy. Seriously if I needed meds, this was the week. I must say that all of the crying was because I am so grateful, so thankful and so happy!

There are certain times that make me reflect on life and this was one of them, however instead of lasting a day it lasted more than a week. This year in particular we are deeply thankful for our child Jaiden, Kelsie, our families, friends both old and new, our jobs, and so much more.

At 10months old Jaiden is "FREE STANDING" alot and for a long time. The other day he took two steps and a half while Jess and I were watching. We screamed with excitement. Although it was exciting it's a little difficult to not want it to slow down. I can not believe his development in the last month, it really is astonishing. He is a total chatter box, talk....talk...talk. He says "bye bye" sometimes, although Mommy and Daddy are the only ones to actually understand him. He says "ba" for his bottle, "uh" for anything and everything, "bu" for bird and "moo" for moon.

We bought Jaiden his first pair of walking shoes, although they are not specific "walking shoes." But who cares cause they are darn cute. He seems to like them even though they are a little heavy. It's funny to watch him as he slowly picks up his foot to move it forward. So methodical.

Jaiden now climbs the stairs from the entry way to the upstairs...a total of 15 stairs. It is adorable. If his Daddy is with him they race up them and of course Jaiden always wins.

The other day Jess and I got to talking about what our life was before Jaiden and the truth is neither one of us can imagine it. Our hearts are fuller than ever before and for that we are so thankful.