Jess and I left Minnesota on Wednesday the 21st of January. As we approached the airport a sense of calm excitement filled our bodies. Zach helped us check in because we had our luggage and the baby and truthfully we were alittle uncoordinated... I know hard to believe! We needed to take two planes to get home, the first one landed in Phoenix and the second one in Burbank. Once the plane took off both Jess and I squeezed each others hand and looked into one anothers eyes in almost disbelief. Could we really be taking off on a plane to California with our son in our arms? Actually he was around my waist in a pouch. We had gotten to this point somehow and reality was slowly appearing.
Exiting the airplane and walking on California ground somehow made it all so much more real. With each step the excitement and contentment grew. Janet was waiting for us at baggage claim, what a great welcome home.
The next few days were filled with visitors. Although it sure was needed there was a bigger need, and that was to just be alone with our son. We needed time to take it all in, to wake up with him, feed him, play with him, stare at him, to simply enjoy him. For the past few weeks we were surrounded by people, which we were grateful for, but now we needed some time.
Today my sister Gaby stopped by and thankfully she brought her camera with her. She managed to photograph her nephew between his naps. There is no mistaking that she got more than one brilliant shot. When she left I hugged her extra hard I didn't want to let go. We are home with our child because she made "the call."
It has been an awe inspiring experience for me to watch Jess with his son. There is a new sparkle in Jesse's eye, something I have never seen before.
Each day it is a race between the two of us to get to the baby. Whoever gets there first...wins!
Tomorrow is a big day...the baby's first appointment with his Pediatrician. My guess is he weighs 10 lbs the way he is sucking down 4oz each feeding. We are interested in hearing this Doctors philosophy. Unfortunately we did not get to interview this Doctor prior due to insurance policies but she is a referral from my Doctor and I am hoping it's a good fit for us.
Given our nature before long our front door will be open for all those who want to come visit our special miracle. He has no idea how healing he is to so many of us. When you are in his presence you can not help but be affected by his sweet power.
I can hear his cry for more formula but it's too late...Daddy beat me to it!
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Home sweet home
Tonight at dinner we received a phone call from our Attorney's legal assistant who said, "I got the approval." Words the we have been waiting to hear. So tomorrow we will be on a flight home to California with our son.
The excitement of getting home brings a warm calm to my body.
How could we be at this point of our adoption? Really it is a miracle, and like I said before all the pieces of the puzzle had to come together. Something much great than us was instrumental in making it all happen. Believing that all things are possible.
Today our little one had his first Doctors appt. We needed to get a signed letter from the Doctor giving us permission to take him on a plane.
He is now 9lbs 5oz, and 22 inches long. I guess the 3oz bottles are working.
It is hard to believe that he is 8 days old. Each day he changes and both Jess and I marvel at it. His hair gets longer, his face gets wider, his fingers grow, and his legs have begun to straighten. Those are just a few of the things.
Tonight Deb came to say goodbye for now. No one had to say too much because we all peacefully understand the tremendous power of what took place between all of us.
We are going to miss everyone here in Minnesota, and although the weather is extremely cold, we actually like it. People move at a slower pace here but I am told that in the summertime there is a much more playful vibe. One would give themselves permission to slow down and nest here during the winters...Something we should all try doing. Jesse and Zach went hockey skating on a huge lake today and yesterday. If outdoor skating rinks were easy to find in California I suppose Jesse would be adding another sport to his list of activities.
The baby is now sleeping in Jesse arms...a sight I have been dreaming about forever. There is no way to articulate the overwhelming sensation that it brings to me. This little guy is going to mean so much to so many of us. There are two people who have said that he has given them a reason to live. Now how powerful is that? He is only 8 days old and he has already made such a difference in the lives of so many. People say he is a lucky guy, but really we are the lucky ones.
California here we come...
The excitement of getting home brings a warm calm to my body.
How could we be at this point of our adoption? Really it is a miracle, and like I said before all the pieces of the puzzle had to come together. Something much great than us was instrumental in making it all happen. Believing that all things are possible.
Today our little one had his first Doctors appt. We needed to get a signed letter from the Doctor giving us permission to take him on a plane.
He is now 9lbs 5oz, and 22 inches long. I guess the 3oz bottles are working.
It is hard to believe that he is 8 days old. Each day he changes and both Jess and I marvel at it. His hair gets longer, his face gets wider, his fingers grow, and his legs have begun to straighten. Those are just a few of the things.
Tonight Deb came to say goodbye for now. No one had to say too much because we all peacefully understand the tremendous power of what took place between all of us.
We are going to miss everyone here in Minnesota, and although the weather is extremely cold, we actually like it. People move at a slower pace here but I am told that in the summertime there is a much more playful vibe. One would give themselves permission to slow down and nest here during the winters...Something we should all try doing. Jesse and Zach went hockey skating on a huge lake today and yesterday. If outdoor skating rinks were easy to find in California I suppose Jesse would be adding another sport to his list of activities.
The baby is now sleeping in Jesse arms...a sight I have been dreaming about forever. There is no way to articulate the overwhelming sensation that it brings to me. This little guy is going to mean so much to so many of us. There are two people who have said that he has given them a reason to live. Now how powerful is that? He is only 8 days old and he has already made such a difference in the lives of so many. People say he is a lucky guy, but really we are the lucky ones.
California here we come...
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Pure Bliss
Where do I begin...It has been pure bliss. We have been enjoying every single minute with our new son, so much so that I have not had a chance to communicate to all of you who have been following our story.
I was going to write about all the challenges we have endured so that you all could get the picture of what we have been going through but I have decided to leave those details out. I am mainly going to share the incredible joy Jess and I are feeling.
The first night we came home with our child was difficult. It was about 7:30pm and we had been at the hospital since 12 noon waiting. We were told Kelsie would be discharged by then, that was not the case. That day was filled with so many emotions but the most difficult part was the transfer of our little son from Kelsie to us.I will paint a picture for you. Kelsie needed to leave the hospital in a wheelchair with the baby in a car seat in her lap. There was an entourage of people around and someone was videotaping, Jesse was told to take the car seat from Kelsie's lap and place it in our car. Kelsie was hysterical, her pain almost unbearable for us to witness. Jess put the car seat in our car and then Kelsie sat in the back seat and sobbed while she said goodbye to the child she just gave birth too. I can not imagine what that must have been like for her, but watching it was extremely difficult. There was absolutely no way for us to keep it together. Tears flowed uncontrollably from our eyes.Our hearts ached so terribly for Kelsie. As we drove away although it was one of the happiest moments for us, our hearts were so heavy for Kelsie. We cried the whole way home, sad tears. Tears for this young girl who was placing her child with us. The whole night we talked about what Kelsie must be feeling. With no questions asked this was the hardest thing she has done so far in her life. Her bravery and courage are something we will never forget.
It took us until Friday after Kelsie had signed the paperwork for both Jess and I to feel completely safe and let our guard down.However Kelsie has until Feb 2nd to change her mind. We have been consumed with every little breath our son takes. As I mentioned he is a big boy and doing big boy things or so we think . I suppose it is a first time parent thing. He rolled over on his side today, he found his thumb and has been sucking his finger, and he holds his bottle. Before you know it he'll be going to the refrigerator and bringing his bottle to us!
Last night our son had his first bath and he loved it! I'm not sure if it was more exciting for him or us, but we took tons of picture cause it is one of those things we'll want to remember.
The hospitality here has exceeded all expectations. Every night we have a home cooked meal either by Darci or Deb, great company, use of washer/dryer, and a basement all to ourselves. Tonight we were invited to Deb's for a Thanksgiving dinner. She thought it would be appropriate, and boy was it delicious.
I must go feed the little one... but I will write soon.
Stay tuned.
I was going to write about all the challenges we have endured so that you all could get the picture of what we have been going through but I have decided to leave those details out. I am mainly going to share the incredible joy Jess and I are feeling.
The first night we came home with our child was difficult. It was about 7:30pm and we had been at the hospital since 12 noon waiting. We were told Kelsie would be discharged by then, that was not the case. That day was filled with so many emotions but the most difficult part was the transfer of our little son from Kelsie to us.I will paint a picture for you. Kelsie needed to leave the hospital in a wheelchair with the baby in a car seat in her lap. There was an entourage of people around and someone was videotaping, Jesse was told to take the car seat from Kelsie's lap and place it in our car. Kelsie was hysterical, her pain almost unbearable for us to witness. Jess put the car seat in our car and then Kelsie sat in the back seat and sobbed while she said goodbye to the child she just gave birth too. I can not imagine what that must have been like for her, but watching it was extremely difficult. There was absolutely no way for us to keep it together. Tears flowed uncontrollably from our eyes.Our hearts ached so terribly for Kelsie. As we drove away although it was one of the happiest moments for us, our hearts were so heavy for Kelsie. We cried the whole way home, sad tears. Tears for this young girl who was placing her child with us. The whole night we talked about what Kelsie must be feeling. With no questions asked this was the hardest thing she has done so far in her life. Her bravery and courage are something we will never forget.
It took us until Friday after Kelsie had signed the paperwork for both Jess and I to feel completely safe and let our guard down.However Kelsie has until Feb 2nd to change her mind. We have been consumed with every little breath our son takes. As I mentioned he is a big boy and doing big boy things or so we think . I suppose it is a first time parent thing. He rolled over on his side today, he found his thumb and has been sucking his finger, and he holds his bottle. Before you know it he'll be going to the refrigerator and bringing his bottle to us!
Last night our son had his first bath and he loved it! I'm not sure if it was more exciting for him or us, but we took tons of picture cause it is one of those things we'll want to remember.
The hospitality here has exceeded all expectations. Every night we have a home cooked meal either by Darci or Deb, great company, use of washer/dryer, and a basement all to ourselves. Tonight we were invited to Deb's for a Thanksgiving dinner. She thought it would be appropriate, and boy was it delicious.
I must go feed the little one... but I will write soon.
Stay tuned.
Friday, January 16, 2009
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Heaven
The last 24 hours have been heaven. Holding the baby, changing diapers, giving him a bottle, burping him, watching him sleep. All of it magical!
Once we get through tomorrow I will be able to truely relax and let my guard down.We should receive a call from the attorney around noon telling us that Kelsie has signed the official paperwork. Included in the paperwork is a form reducing the amount of time that Kelsie can change her mind from 30 days to 10 working days. It should then take the attorneys 3-5 working days until they call us and tell us we are free to travel back to California with our son.
I am resistant to write too much about everything, including how wonderful today was.
Thanks to everyone for your continued support encouragement, and prayers.
I must return to staring at the baby...
Once we get through tomorrow I will be able to truely relax and let my guard down.We should receive a call from the attorney around noon telling us that Kelsie has signed the official paperwork. Included in the paperwork is a form reducing the amount of time that Kelsie can change her mind from 30 days to 10 working days. It should then take the attorneys 3-5 working days until they call us and tell us we are free to travel back to California with our son.
I am resistant to write too much about everything, including how wonderful today was.
Thanks to everyone for your continued support encouragement, and prayers.
I must return to staring at the baby...
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Baby Time
We arrived home this evening to Zach and Darci's with our beautiful son.
The celebration does not take place until after Friday when Kelsie signs the official paperwork. Until then we will be praying and continuing to think positive.
Today was extremely stressful and once I decide it is time to put this baby down I will write about it, but for now I am holding him all night long and we are introducing each other to one another. Oh sweet bliss...
The celebration does not take place until after Friday when Kelsie signs the official paperwork. Until then we will be praying and continuing to think positive.
Today was extremely stressful and once I decide it is time to put this baby down I will write about it, but for now I am holding him all night long and we are introducing each other to one another. Oh sweet bliss...
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
The Lobby
We spent the whole day at the hospital.The day was filled with so many different emotions. It was a strange and intense day. There were many visitors for Kelsie, friends, social workers, teachers, and relatives. For the most part Jess and I sat in the lobby trying to maintain. We did our best to be invisible and grant Kelsie her wish of spending the first 48 hours with the baby. It was a struggle. Every minute I wanted to run up to Kelsie's room and hold the baby and every minute Jess reminded me to breath. Every other minute I reminded Jess to breath. How could we be so close yet so far away? With great restraint we managed to only go to Kelsie's room a few times. Because the room was always filled with people it was hard to get a good look at the big boy, plus he was bundled in a blanket and Kelsie had a strong hold on him, she was not letting him go . I so badly wanted to hold him, talk to him, squeeze him, smell him and kiss him but that never happened.
We try to imagine what Kelsie is feeling, and are extremely sensitive to her needs but I had no idea how hard it would be.
You would not be able to tell that Jess and I are new parents unless you are in a room alone with us. In front of the hospital crowds we are just two ordinary people waiting in the lobby. But that will change very soon.
Tomorrow or actually today since it past 12:00am we will be shouting from the rooftops, "Who's your Daddy? Who's your Momma?"
We can use all your positive energy sometime around noon, that is when the transition should be taking place.
Listen carefully for the cries of joy...that will be Jess and I.
We try to imagine what Kelsie is feeling, and are extremely sensitive to her needs but I had no idea how hard it would be.
You would not be able to tell that Jess and I are new parents unless you are in a room alone with us. In front of the hospital crowds we are just two ordinary people waiting in the lobby. But that will change very soon.
Tomorrow or actually today since it past 12:00am we will be shouting from the rooftops, "Who's your Daddy? Who's your Momma?"
We can use all your positive energy sometime around noon, that is when the transition should be taking place.
Listen carefully for the cries of joy...that will be Jess and I.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Finally Three
It was a very intense and long day but worth every single minute.
At 10:12pm Jan 12, 2009 our BIG baby boy was born weighing in at a whopping 9lbs 1.3oz and 21 3/4 inches long. He is BEAUTIFUL!
Just got home and it is 2pm. We will do our best to post some pictures tomorrow and write much more.
For now the new parents are turning out the light.
All our love-
At 10:12pm Jan 12, 2009 our BIG baby boy was born weighing in at a whopping 9lbs 1.3oz and 21 3/4 inches long. He is BEAUTIFUL!
Just got home and it is 2pm. We will do our best to post some pictures tomorrow and write much more.
For now the new parents are turning out the light.
All our love-
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Happy Birthday Jesse
Arrived in Minnesota yesterday around 2pm.My nephew and his fiance picked us up at the airport, stopped to have sandwiches because we were starved. Not only do the airlines no longer serve food, but they don't even give you a bag of peanuts!
The weather is cold but tolerable. It is beautiful here and white!
Zach and Darci drove us around their neighborhood stopping at a lake close by that was frozen. People walking, dogs running, kites flying, it was fairyland. I was so excited to see my first "ice house" and fisherman. People really fish, standing in the freezing cold!Crazy.
We were excited to see Zach and Darci's home which they purchase 6 month ago or so. It is darling, charming, warm, inviting, and it feels like "home." To the basement we went where we will live for the next week. It's perfect, a bed, a computer, a sitting area with couch and TV. We could not ask for anything more.
Visited with Z and D for about an hour and then off to meet Kelsie, Savannah, Amy, and Boh for dinner. It was great to see Kelsie and her belly again, we missed them. She was beautiful, definitely uncomfortable and ready to have the baby. After dinner Jess and I took Kelsie to a coffee shop to catch up alone. So glad we had the opportunity. Great conversation, learned alot more about Kelsie and how mature and bright she is and then since Kelsie didn't know how to direct us back to the freeway we stopped at the lounge/bar where Amy was to get directions.
We stayed with Amy and Boh for a few hours talking and got home around 12pm. Five minutes after we got home Z and D came home and we visited for another hour. Late night.
Jesse is another year older today and I am celebrating him! Woke up late and had to be at brunch at noon. Kelsie invited her girlfiends Stephanie and Amy to join us and Amy invited her 2 sisters to join us. Everyone was very nice. Kind of a strange feeling being the "California couple" who have come to adopt the baby Kelsie is about to give birth to.
After brunch we went to the hospital so that they could give Kelsie prostaglandin gel. It is supposed to help ripen her cervix. She stayed in the hospital for a few hours and then they sent her home. She was dilated to 3cm and her cervix looks ready. The nurse said 50% chance she could go into labor tonight. If she does not go into labor tonight, she is to go to the hospital in the morning at 7:30am to be induced.
It was a long day, lots of emotions. Jess and I did our best to stay positive and light hearted.
When we arrived back at Zach's they had a delicious dinner ready for us and how cute are they? A chocolate chocolate birthday cake for the Jesster. We celebrated and delighted in their company.
Totally exhausted. Going to bed with our phones next to us, ready to be back at the hospital in a moments notice.
Jesse thanks you all for the birthday wishes. I promise to do my best to keep you updated as our story unfolds.
Until tomorrow...
The weather is cold but tolerable. It is beautiful here and white!
Zach and Darci drove us around their neighborhood stopping at a lake close by that was frozen. People walking, dogs running, kites flying, it was fairyland. I was so excited to see my first "ice house" and fisherman. People really fish, standing in the freezing cold!Crazy.
We were excited to see Zach and Darci's home which they purchase 6 month ago or so. It is darling, charming, warm, inviting, and it feels like "home." To the basement we went where we will live for the next week. It's perfect, a bed, a computer, a sitting area with couch and TV. We could not ask for anything more.
Visited with Z and D for about an hour and then off to meet Kelsie, Savannah, Amy, and Boh for dinner. It was great to see Kelsie and her belly again, we missed them. She was beautiful, definitely uncomfortable and ready to have the baby. After dinner Jess and I took Kelsie to a coffee shop to catch up alone. So glad we had the opportunity. Great conversation, learned alot more about Kelsie and how mature and bright she is and then since Kelsie didn't know how to direct us back to the freeway we stopped at the lounge/bar where Amy was to get directions.
We stayed with Amy and Boh for a few hours talking and got home around 12pm. Five minutes after we got home Z and D came home and we visited for another hour. Late night.
Jesse is another year older today and I am celebrating him! Woke up late and had to be at brunch at noon. Kelsie invited her girlfiends Stephanie and Amy to join us and Amy invited her 2 sisters to join us. Everyone was very nice. Kind of a strange feeling being the "California couple" who have come to adopt the baby Kelsie is about to give birth to.
After brunch we went to the hospital so that they could give Kelsie prostaglandin gel. It is supposed to help ripen her cervix. She stayed in the hospital for a few hours and then they sent her home. She was dilated to 3cm and her cervix looks ready. The nurse said 50% chance she could go into labor tonight. If she does not go into labor tonight, she is to go to the hospital in the morning at 7:30am to be induced.
It was a long day, lots of emotions. Jess and I did our best to stay positive and light hearted.
When we arrived back at Zach's they had a delicious dinner ready for us and how cute are they? A chocolate chocolate birthday cake for the Jesster. We celebrated and delighted in their company.
Totally exhausted. Going to bed with our phones next to us, ready to be back at the hospital in a moments notice.
Jesse thanks you all for the birthday wishes. I promise to do my best to keep you updated as our story unfolds.
Until tomorrow...
Friday, January 9, 2009
Minnesota Bound
We have booked our flights and are leaving tomorrow Saturday the 10th for Minnesota on the 6:50am plane. Janet we will be ready and waiting for you to pick us up!
Yesterday I was talking to Kelsie and she said she was wondering if Jess and I would consider coming to "hang out" before the baby comes. There was no question about it for us, only what day and how quickly we could get there. Before we could blink an eye we made our arrangements.
All night long we thought about "hanging out" with Kelsie and her belly!
Our hearts have ached for some time now to be close to Kelsie and now we are less than 30 hours away.
For us it is unbelievable that in a short amount of time we will be welcoming a new baby into this world!
Stay tuned...
Yesterday I was talking to Kelsie and she said she was wondering if Jess and I would consider coming to "hang out" before the baby comes. There was no question about it for us, only what day and how quickly we could get there. Before we could blink an eye we made our arrangements.
All night long we thought about "hanging out" with Kelsie and her belly!
Our hearts have ached for some time now to be close to Kelsie and now we are less than 30 hours away.
For us it is unbelievable that in a short amount of time we will be welcoming a new baby into this world!
Stay tuned...
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Due Date
It is hard to believe we are at this point...THE DUE DATE. It seems unreal. We have been waiting all day for "the call," and we still wait. Every time the phone rings my heart skips a beat.
Talked to some girlfriends tonight and reminisced about where our adoption started with the Foster Adopt program to where we are now.
This process of adoption started years ago for Jess and I. Who would of ever imagined it would take so long to get to where we are now? Certainly not us. There is a foreign calm about this place, a place where we have never been but a place that feels perfectly aligned.
We are going to hold one another extra tight tonight...waiting!
Talked to some girlfriends tonight and reminisced about where our adoption started with the Foster Adopt program to where we are now.
This process of adoption started years ago for Jess and I. Who would of ever imagined it would take so long to get to where we are now? Certainly not us. There is a foreign calm about this place, a place where we have never been but a place that feels perfectly aligned.
We are going to hold one another extra tight tonight...waiting!
Monday, January 5, 2009
Uncontrollable nervousness
Another day is close to an end. Throughout the day anticipation maneuvered its way through my body, but I was quick to put it back in it's place. Jesse and I talked a few times while I was at work, doing our best to keep one another balanced.
Talked to Amy, Kelsie's Mom tonight. Everything was fine, Kelsie was in bed exhausted from a day of activity.
Jess and I watched a movie hoping it would take our minds off of our situation just for a short while but it was not successful. My legs were restless and I could barely keep still. Trying to control the nervous tension is impossible, so we are now contemplating going out for a walk to calm ourselves, but that means bundling up in warm clothes cause it is cold outside. I suppose it would be a good for us to get used to the cold cause it is freezing in Minnesota!
Tomorrow is Kelsie's actual due date... January 6th! At this point it is anyone's guess as to when the little one will come, but one thing is foresure he will be here in less than 10days!
Talked to Amy, Kelsie's Mom tonight. Everything was fine, Kelsie was in bed exhausted from a day of activity.
Jess and I watched a movie hoping it would take our minds off of our situation just for a short while but it was not successful. My legs were restless and I could barely keep still. Trying to control the nervous tension is impossible, so we are now contemplating going out for a walk to calm ourselves, but that means bundling up in warm clothes cause it is cold outside. I suppose it would be a good for us to get used to the cold cause it is freezing in Minnesota!
Tomorrow is Kelsie's actual due date... January 6th! At this point it is anyone's guess as to when the little one will come, but one thing is foresure he will be here in less than 10days!
Sunday, January 4, 2009
False alarm
What are those terribly painful cramp like sensations?
We received a phone call on Thursday night from Amy, Kelsie's Mom saying," Are you ready to be parents?" All I can say is I have never seen Jesse jump so fast from the couch in all the years I have known him. Kelsie was having contractions, her belly was hard, and her back was killing her. Quickly Jesse and I finished packing and patiently waited with the phone next to us.
Friday Kelsie had a Doctor's appointment, and she was told she was not in labor but everything looks good and the baby is definitely in the right position.
Saturday night as Jess and I were driving to my parents for a quick visit we received a call from Amy who said, "it looks like things may be happening, Kelsie is having contractions and they are 7 minutes apart." Jess and I just stared at each other like OMG...what does this mean? Well apparently it did not mean that Kelsie was in labor either because by this morning when we talked with Kelsie she was no longer having contractions.
So we wait...trying to keep ourselves busy...and not go crazy. Surprisingly we are quite calm, enjoying one another, giggling an awful lot and patiently waiting! It is a strange wonderful place to be.
We received a phone call on Thursday night from Amy, Kelsie's Mom saying," Are you ready to be parents?" All I can say is I have never seen Jesse jump so fast from the couch in all the years I have known him. Kelsie was having contractions, her belly was hard, and her back was killing her. Quickly Jesse and I finished packing and patiently waited with the phone next to us.
Friday Kelsie had a Doctor's appointment, and she was told she was not in labor but everything looks good and the baby is definitely in the right position.
Saturday night as Jess and I were driving to my parents for a quick visit we received a call from Amy who said, "it looks like things may be happening, Kelsie is having contractions and they are 7 minutes apart." Jess and I just stared at each other like OMG...what does this mean? Well apparently it did not mean that Kelsie was in labor either because by this morning when we talked with Kelsie she was no longer having contractions.
So we wait...trying to keep ourselves busy...and not go crazy. Surprisingly we are quite calm, enjoying one another, giggling an awful lot and patiently waiting! It is a strange wonderful place to be.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Happy New Year
Let 2009 bring change, hope and an abundance of joy and peace.
Jess and I talked to Kelsie today and wished her a Happy New Year. I hope she knows how happy she has already made this year for us. I imagine she does, but not to the deep depths of our core. It is strange how freely our hearts are open when only a short while ago the pain restricted even a thought of vulnerability.
We took out two small suitcases today and have made a commitment to pack this weekend. I suppose it must feel like packing the "overnight bag" to take to the hospital. We will be ready to go as soon as the "phone call"comes. As surreal as it is, it feels absolutely right.
To get to this point it took several pieces of a puzzle to be put together perfectly. First of all it took my nephew Zach to get engaged to Darci and move to Minnesota. Then it took Zach's soon to be Mother-in-law Deb to think of us when she ran into Kelsie at her Mothers 90th birthday party. Then it took Deb and Zach to talk about it, Zach to have the courage to call his Mother (my sister) even though he was a bit reluctant and for good reason, and then it took my sister Gaby to take a chance and call me and put it out there.Gaby said she never thought twice about it, she just picked up the phone and dialed! Unbelievable! I must also say that Jesse gets credit for breaking down my brick wall, bringing me to a place of less resistance where I could see more clearly and believe just like him that this was a "sign."
Believing that everything happens exactly the way it supposed to...Happy New Year!
Jess and I talked to Kelsie today and wished her a Happy New Year. I hope she knows how happy she has already made this year for us. I imagine she does, but not to the deep depths of our core. It is strange how freely our hearts are open when only a short while ago the pain restricted even a thought of vulnerability.
We took out two small suitcases today and have made a commitment to pack this weekend. I suppose it must feel like packing the "overnight bag" to take to the hospital. We will be ready to go as soon as the "phone call"comes. As surreal as it is, it feels absolutely right.
To get to this point it took several pieces of a puzzle to be put together perfectly. First of all it took my nephew Zach to get engaged to Darci and move to Minnesota. Then it took Zach's soon to be Mother-in-law Deb to think of us when she ran into Kelsie at her Mothers 90th birthday party. Then it took Deb and Zach to talk about it, Zach to have the courage to call his Mother (my sister) even though he was a bit reluctant and for good reason, and then it took my sister Gaby to take a chance and call me and put it out there.Gaby said she never thought twice about it, she just picked up the phone and dialed! Unbelievable! I must also say that Jesse gets credit for breaking down my brick wall, bringing me to a place of less resistance where I could see more clearly and believe just like him that this was a "sign."
Believing that everything happens exactly the way it supposed to...Happy New Year!
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