The Lobby

We spent the whole day at the hospital.The day was filled with so many different emotions. It was a strange and intense day. There were many visitors for Kelsie, friends, social workers, teachers, and relatives. For the most part Jess and I sat in the lobby trying to maintain. We did our best to be invisible and grant Kelsie her wish of spending the first 48 hours with the baby. It was a struggle. Every minute I wanted to run up to Kelsie's room and hold the baby and every minute Jess reminded me to breath. Every other minute I reminded Jess to breath. How could we be so close yet so far away? With great restraint we managed to only go to Kelsie's room a few times. Because the room was always filled with people it was hard to get a good look at the big boy, plus he was bundled in a blanket and Kelsie had a strong hold on him, she was not letting him go . I so badly wanted to hold him, talk to him, squeeze him, smell him and kiss him but that never happened.
We try to imagine what Kelsie is feeling, and are extremely sensitive to her needs but I had no idea how hard it would be.
You would not be able to tell that Jess and I are new parents unless you are in a room alone with us. In front of the hospital crowds we are just two ordinary people waiting in the lobby. But that will change very soon.
Tomorrow or actually today since it past 12:00am we will be shouting from the rooftops, "Who's your Daddy? Who's your Momma?"
We can use all your positive energy sometime around noon, that is when the transition should be taking place.
Listen carefully for the cries of joy...that will be Jess and I.