The week leading up to Thanksgiving was an extremely emotional week for me. I could not pull myself together. I would think about what I was thankful for this year and I would get overwhelmed and instantly tears would well up in my eyes, and my breathing would start to go awry. I had absolutely no control, it was as if my body was infiltrated with a deep rooted pumping drug right into my veins. It completely took me over. I was at the grocery store one night, just waiting in line with a million other people and tears came streaming down my face. I believe that a magazine cover with a Mother and child on it prompted this kind of reaction. All I could do was pray that the guy staring at me didn't know it was just a magazine! I was leaving for work one morning and my beautiful son Jaid hugged me as he has done before but for some reason it through me into an emotional explosion and I sat in my car...crying. Happy uncontrollable tears. By the time I got to work I looked like shit. One night when I was feeding Jaid and we were playing the dessert game, tears were rolling down my face, and he could not figure out why Mommy's face was wet and black stuff was running down her face. It was not pretty whatsoever. Jess said something nice to me in the morning before we started our Thanksgiving day and again I lost it. Geeze he was just saying that my outfit was cute and I went into a crying frenzy. Seriously if I needed meds, this was the week. I must say that all of the crying was because I am so grateful, so thankful and so happy!
There are certain times that make me reflect on life and this was one of them, however instead of lasting a day it lasted more than a week. This year in particular we are deeply thankful for our child Jaiden, Kelsie, our families, friends both old and new, our jobs, and so much more.
At 10months old Jaiden is "FREE STANDING" alot and for a long time. The other day he took two steps and a half while Jess and I were watching. We screamed with excitement. Although it was exciting it's a little difficult to not want it to slow down. I can not believe his development in the last month, it really is astonishing. He is a total chatter box, talk....talk...talk. He says "bye bye" sometimes, although Mommy and Daddy are the only ones to actually understand him. He says "ba" for his bottle, "uh" for anything and everything, "bu" for bird and "moo" for moon.
We bought Jaiden his first pair of walking shoes, although they are not specific "walking shoes." But who cares cause they are darn cute. He seems to like them even though they are a little heavy. It's funny to watch him as he slowly picks up his foot to move it forward. So methodical.
Jaiden now climbs the stairs from the entry way to the upstairs...a total of 15 stairs. It is adorable. If his Daddy is with him they race up them and of course Jaiden always wins.
The other day Jess and I got to talking about what our life was before Jaiden and the truth is neither one of us can imagine it. Our hearts are fuller than ever before and for that we are so thankful.
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
9 IS DEVINE
On Oct 12th Jaiden turned 9 months old. How is that possible?
Jaiden now weighs over 23lbs and is 30in long. Growing at a consistent rate. He had his immunizations at his 9month Dr's appt, along with a flu shot. He cried and I could barely stand it. I held him so tight and wiped his real watery tears as they poured from his eyes.
Jaiden now says, "da da " which of course just sends a warm chill though Jess. He cruises from one piece of furniture to another, pulls himself up, and makes all kinds of new sounds. It is really funny because you can see him thinking about his next step, whatever it is. When he is cruising he never just goes for it until he is certain there is a place for at least one of his hands. We can see his mind figuring it out. He gets so excited when he makes a transfer and expresses it by turning his head around to make sure someone is watching and then he cracks a huge smile. The other day he went from his tummy to his bottom, something he had not done before so of course now all day long he goes from his tummy to his bottom, over and over again. He is trying to climb up 2 stairs from the living room to the dining room. He can't quite get it but I am sure it wont' be long. The gates will be coming out the attic/storage soon.
A wonderful never to be forgotten moment was yesterday morning. We heard Jaid playing in his crib like he always does in the morning. We both approached his door and quietly opened it. As we started to sing our "good morning" song to him we were caught by surprise to see him "STANDING" in his crib holding onto the rail so proud. Yep "STANDING!" We cheered him on and yahooed him. It was very exciting for all of us. When I got home last night we had to adjust his crib for the second time so that his mattress is low to the ground for safety. Making sure he does not have an opportunity to escape!
A new situation has come up every time I take babylicious out of the bathtub. He screams so loud the neighbors probably think something fishy is going on. He LOVES the bath, and even if he is freezing, and his fingers look like prunes and his teeth are chattering he still does not want to come out. It's actually quite cute. The other day Jess and I had to stradegize about how we would take him out , I must say it worked somewhat now we just have to perfect it.
A year ago Oct 31st I received "the call' from my sister Gaby about Jaid. I remember clear as day, and I remember exactly what she said. I called my sister to tell her it was a year ago and we both reminisced about our phone call that day. The phenomenal thing is that now we have a 9month old son whom we love like no other.
Halloween was wonderful. We celebrated with some friends and family. Our "hood" is quite the place to be on Halloween. So much fun...Jaid went trick or treating in his pirate costume. Arr-He was so darn cute! This day meant so much more to me than just Halloween.
Every day we learn more and more about our little angel and every day we are so grateful. He brings with him more joy than we ever imagined, he makes our lives more complete!
Jaiden now weighs over 23lbs and is 30in long. Growing at a consistent rate. He had his immunizations at his 9month Dr's appt, along with a flu shot. He cried and I could barely stand it. I held him so tight and wiped his real watery tears as they poured from his eyes.
Jaiden now says, "da da " which of course just sends a warm chill though Jess. He cruises from one piece of furniture to another, pulls himself up, and makes all kinds of new sounds. It is really funny because you can see him thinking about his next step, whatever it is. When he is cruising he never just goes for it until he is certain there is a place for at least one of his hands. We can see his mind figuring it out. He gets so excited when he makes a transfer and expresses it by turning his head around to make sure someone is watching and then he cracks a huge smile. The other day he went from his tummy to his bottom, something he had not done before so of course now all day long he goes from his tummy to his bottom, over and over again. He is trying to climb up 2 stairs from the living room to the dining room. He can't quite get it but I am sure it wont' be long. The gates will be coming out the attic/storage soon.
A wonderful never to be forgotten moment was yesterday morning. We heard Jaid playing in his crib like he always does in the morning. We both approached his door and quietly opened it. As we started to sing our "good morning" song to him we were caught by surprise to see him "STANDING" in his crib holding onto the rail so proud. Yep "STANDING!" We cheered him on and yahooed him. It was very exciting for all of us. When I got home last night we had to adjust his crib for the second time so that his mattress is low to the ground for safety. Making sure he does not have an opportunity to escape!
A new situation has come up every time I take babylicious out of the bathtub. He screams so loud the neighbors probably think something fishy is going on. He LOVES the bath, and even if he is freezing, and his fingers look like prunes and his teeth are chattering he still does not want to come out. It's actually quite cute. The other day Jess and I had to stradegize about how we would take him out , I must say it worked somewhat now we just have to perfect it.
A year ago Oct 31st I received "the call' from my sister Gaby about Jaid. I remember clear as day, and I remember exactly what she said. I called my sister to tell her it was a year ago and we both reminisced about our phone call that day. The phenomenal thing is that now we have a 9month old son whom we love like no other.
Halloween was wonderful. We celebrated with some friends and family. Our "hood" is quite the place to be on Halloween. So much fun...Jaid went trick or treating in his pirate costume. Arr-He was so darn cute! This day meant so much more to me than just Halloween.
Every day we learn more and more about our little angel and every day we are so grateful. He brings with him more joy than we ever imagined, he makes our lives more complete!
Monday, September 21, 2009
8 MONTHS OLD
Babylicious is now over 8 months old. My guess is weighs 24lbs but we have not been to the Doctors in the last month so I am not quite sure. His hair is growing in, but still not sure what color it is. Sometimes it looks brown, other days blond and some times even red.
He is doing this strange crawl where he actually scoots on just one leg and one arm. It is damn cute. He can get anywhere in a matter of seconds! The other night Jaiden and I were playing on his mat, which takes up the living room, and we both heard Daddy pull up on his loud Harley. I watched Jaiden as he looked up and listened. I was astonished that he was putting it together, that Daddy was home. With his head still in the up position listening, he waited and then heard Daddy coming down the stair in his boots. When Jess appeared, Jaiden began to shake his arms, kick his legs and smile from ear to ear. He even began to squeal. We were dying, and just when we thought it could not get any better, Jess waived his hand and said, "come here, come here" and for the first time Jaiden quickly got on his stomach, and scooched all the way to Daddy. It was the best ever. Both Jess and I were moved to tears , it was a moment that neither one of us will ever forget.
We took Jaiden to the park the other day and for the first time we put him on the swing. He LOVED it. He was fascinated by the movement and the air blowing on his face. It was fun for him to watch all the other children playing too. As soon as he can walk he is gonna be all over that park. I can see it now....the slide...the swing...the monkey bars...and back to the slide. I better prepare myself...
Jaiden celebrated his first Rosh Hashanah- with traditional foods and family. He did not indulge in the foods, but I did tell him next year he will get to try Grandmom's brisket which is by far the best brisket on this earth.
Yesterday Jaid had his first biscuit/teether cracker. It was totally cool until he got a big wet sticky piece lodged on the top of his mouth. I realized it when he started to gag and twist his face. I quickly put my finger in his mouth- dislodged this honkin piece. I think the problem is he shoves the who 3 inch biscuit in his mouth, gets it all wet, and chunks break off. If only he ate it like he was supposed to then this would not be an issue. Anyways, this will not keep us from giving him biscuits we'll just stay close by with a finger ready to dis-lodge!
He is doing this strange crawl where he actually scoots on just one leg and one arm. It is damn cute. He can get anywhere in a matter of seconds! The other night Jaiden and I were playing on his mat, which takes up the living room, and we both heard Daddy pull up on his loud Harley. I watched Jaiden as he looked up and listened. I was astonished that he was putting it together, that Daddy was home. With his head still in the up position listening, he waited and then heard Daddy coming down the stair in his boots. When Jess appeared, Jaiden began to shake his arms, kick his legs and smile from ear to ear. He even began to squeal. We were dying, and just when we thought it could not get any better, Jess waived his hand and said, "come here, come here" and for the first time Jaiden quickly got on his stomach, and scooched all the way to Daddy. It was the best ever. Both Jess and I were moved to tears , it was a moment that neither one of us will ever forget.
We took Jaiden to the park the other day and for the first time we put him on the swing. He LOVED it. He was fascinated by the movement and the air blowing on his face. It was fun for him to watch all the other children playing too. As soon as he can walk he is gonna be all over that park. I can see it now....the slide...the swing...the monkey bars...and back to the slide. I better prepare myself...
Jaiden celebrated his first Rosh Hashanah- with traditional foods and family. He did not indulge in the foods, but I did tell him next year he will get to try Grandmom's brisket which is by far the best brisket on this earth.
Yesterday Jaid had his first biscuit/teether cracker. It was totally cool until he got a big wet sticky piece lodged on the top of his mouth. I realized it when he started to gag and twist his face. I quickly put my finger in his mouth- dislodged this honkin piece. I think the problem is he shoves the who 3 inch biscuit in his mouth, gets it all wet, and chunks break off. If only he ate it like he was supposed to then this would not be an issue. Anyways, this will not keep us from giving him biscuits we'll just stay close by with a finger ready to dis-lodge!
We went out on the boat again the other day. The water completely soothes Jaid. He LOVES it! He now likes to stand on the seat in the back of the boat looking out to the water, holding on with his hands, and watches the water, the duckies, the birds, and the boats coming and going. So cute. While we played cards, Jaid fell asleep on the seat between us and we just smiled at one another with complete joy.
It is still hard to believe that we have an 8 1/2 month old...each day we are in awe of all the wonderful new things he does and the joy he brings to us.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
7 MONTHS OLD
Our wonderful little boy turned 7 months old the other day...how is that possible? I love the way it feels to say,"our little boy."
I can't imagine life without him. It is as if we have been 3 forever. For so long we dreamt about what it would be like to have a child in our prescence but had no idea the profound effect he would have on us.
This last month we experienced alot of firsts. We had our first swim lesson, and I must say Jaid is a natural. Kicking under the water without any instruction to do so. Splashing and moving his arms in a way that would make you think this kid has been in the pool before. Jaid went to his first concert...Big Bad Voodoo Daddy and he LOVED it. Jaid was exposed to many first solid foods this last month. To say he is a great eater is an understatement... so far he likes everything. He is sitting up by himself for the first time, seeing everything from a different perspective. It is a wonder to watch him explore, feel, taste, and play. Each day it is something new.
Unfortunately Jaid got a bacterial infection last week. His excema was getting very bad in the back of his leg and there was a little pimple like thing next to it so we decided to take him in. Thank goodness because it turns out he has MRSA which is a bacteria - staph infection. They say it is transferred skin to skin or a carrier may have it in there nose without even knowing. Gross. Apparently because his excema got so bad- it penetrated the area. So we are nursing him back to himself. Actually he's been great through it all...he's a trooper. It hurts me more than it hurts him!
I think about my favorite time with Jaid and every time is my favorite time. My favorite time is when he awakes in the moring and we hear him talking and playing with himself. My favorite time is when we walk into his room first thing in the morning and he just looks up at us with a huge beautiful smile. My favorite time is when Jesse brings him into bed to cuddle after his first bottle. My favorite it time his when we set him up in his play area in the morning. My favorite time is when I get home from work, Daddy is holding him and he stretches his arms out for me to take him into my arms and sqeeeeeeeeze him. My favorite time is when he is in his high chair and he is feeding himself with his spoon. My favorite time is when we give Jaid his bath and he splashes with all his toys. My favorite time is when he has his last bottle and we begin our nightly routine. My favorite time is when I read to him at night and he holds the book with interest until I am finished. Then I kiss his forehead, say "night night" and our eyes lock. Without exchanging any more words I begin to walk out. We both know it is safe to leave one another because when we awake tomorrow my favorite time will come again.
I can't imagine life without him. It is as if we have been 3 forever. For so long we dreamt about what it would be like to have a child in our prescence but had no idea the profound effect he would have on us.
This last month we experienced alot of firsts. We had our first swim lesson, and I must say Jaid is a natural. Kicking under the water without any instruction to do so. Splashing and moving his arms in a way that would make you think this kid has been in the pool before. Jaid went to his first concert...Big Bad Voodoo Daddy and he LOVED it. Jaid was exposed to many first solid foods this last month. To say he is a great eater is an understatement... so far he likes everything. He is sitting up by himself for the first time, seeing everything from a different perspective. It is a wonder to watch him explore, feel, taste, and play. Each day it is something new.
Unfortunately Jaid got a bacterial infection last week. His excema was getting very bad in the back of his leg and there was a little pimple like thing next to it so we decided to take him in. Thank goodness because it turns out he has MRSA which is a bacteria - staph infection. They say it is transferred skin to skin or a carrier may have it in there nose without even knowing. Gross. Apparently because his excema got so bad- it penetrated the area. So we are nursing him back to himself. Actually he's been great through it all...he's a trooper. It hurts me more than it hurts him!
I think about my favorite time with Jaid and every time is my favorite time. My favorite time is when he awakes in the moring and we hear him talking and playing with himself. My favorite time is when we walk into his room first thing in the morning and he just looks up at us with a huge beautiful smile. My favorite time is when Jesse brings him into bed to cuddle after his first bottle. My favorite it time his when we set him up in his play area in the morning. My favorite time is when I get home from work, Daddy is holding him and he stretches his arms out for me to take him into my arms and sqeeeeeeeeze him. My favorite time is when he is in his high chair and he is feeding himself with his spoon. My favorite time is when we give Jaid his bath and he splashes with all his toys. My favorite time is when he has his last bottle and we begin our nightly routine. My favorite time is when I read to him at night and he holds the book with interest until I am finished. Then I kiss his forehead, say "night night" and our eyes lock. Without exchanging any more words I begin to walk out. We both know it is safe to leave one another because when we awake tomorrow my favorite time will come again.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
UPDATE
Jaiden celebrated his first 4th of July (the 3 of us had our matching Old Navy t-shirts on)by enjoying a bbq with friends. Before the actual fireworks went off we were home and Jaiden was in bed. We figured he was a little too young and that the noise might bother his ears... next year.
Jesse went on a 5 day fishing trip...guess what I have been eating since his return? You got it...fish...fish tacos...fish and chips....fish fillet....and more fish! My Mom came to hang out with me while Jess was gone. We had so much fun and it was great that she got to enjoy alot of time with her grandson. One night we were watching Jaiden lay on his back and play on his blanket and before we knew it he had rolled to the side, got that one big thigh in the front of the other leg, and pushed himself over on his tummy. He just looked up at us like, hey did you just see that? Mom and I were screaming...he must of thought we were nuts...and we were. Then we decided to see if he would do it again..and wamo...right before our very eyes again he rolled from his back to his tummy. I was definitely a proud Momma!
On July 12th our Jaiden turned 6 months old...how is that possible? It seems like just yesterday we were home from the Ukraine childless. I was reading some of the posts from the Ukraine blog the other day, ( I like to torture myself sometimes) and so many of you left comments encouraging us not to give up , that our child was out there, and we would be 3. How right you were. And here we are with a 6 month old.
Late in the afternoon on the 12th we took the video camera out for the taping of Jaiden's first solid food experience. We sat him in his chair, put a big dab of rice cereal on the his tray for him to play with. He was not sure what to do with it but he was absolutely sure what to do with the spoon. He's brilliant what can I say. First I put a little on his lips and he mushed it around for a minute, then swallowed...another tiny spoonful in his mouth...no look of disgust whatsoever only a look like geeze it's about time you feed me some solid food! Then the next spoonful he actually grabbed the spoon and stuck it right in his mouth. And so the fight of who gets the spoon begins. He now basically feeds himself! We watch the video over and over...and laugh.
I know this will be surprise but Jaiden has 2 teef on the bottom. They are barely out but they are there.
Two days ago we gave Jaiden a sippy cup. OMG...he grabbed on and did not let go, drinking like a big boy. Even if he could not get any water out of it he was entertaining himself by holding it, and chomping on the tip. When I went to take it away from him he screamed...yep that's right...screamed. It was the first time I have ever taken anything away from him and gotten that reaction. So immediately I gave it back to him...I mean I only took it away cause I figured he was done with it...how wrong was I... and he told me so! When the time came a little later to take it away, I just distracted him with something else and he was fine. He never even realized the sippy cup was gone.
Jesse went on a 5 day fishing trip...guess what I have been eating since his return? You got it...fish...fish tacos...fish and chips....fish fillet....and more fish! My Mom came to hang out with me while Jess was gone. We had so much fun and it was great that she got to enjoy alot of time with her grandson. One night we were watching Jaiden lay on his back and play on his blanket and before we knew it he had rolled to the side, got that one big thigh in the front of the other leg, and pushed himself over on his tummy. He just looked up at us like, hey did you just see that? Mom and I were screaming...he must of thought we were nuts...and we were. Then we decided to see if he would do it again..and wamo...right before our very eyes again he rolled from his back to his tummy. I was definitely a proud Momma!
On July 12th our Jaiden turned 6 months old...how is that possible? It seems like just yesterday we were home from the Ukraine childless. I was reading some of the posts from the Ukraine blog the other day, ( I like to torture myself sometimes) and so many of you left comments encouraging us not to give up , that our child was out there, and we would be 3. How right you were. And here we are with a 6 month old.
Late in the afternoon on the 12th we took the video camera out for the taping of Jaiden's first solid food experience. We sat him in his chair, put a big dab of rice cereal on the his tray for him to play with. He was not sure what to do with it but he was absolutely sure what to do with the spoon. He's brilliant what can I say. First I put a little on his lips and he mushed it around for a minute, then swallowed...another tiny spoonful in his mouth...no look of disgust whatsoever only a look like geeze it's about time you feed me some solid food! Then the next spoonful he actually grabbed the spoon and stuck it right in his mouth. And so the fight of who gets the spoon begins. He now basically feeds himself! We watch the video over and over...and laugh.
I know this will be surprise but Jaiden has 2 teef on the bottom. They are barely out but they are there.
Two days ago we gave Jaiden a sippy cup. OMG...he grabbed on and did not let go, drinking like a big boy. Even if he could not get any water out of it he was entertaining himself by holding it, and chomping on the tip. When I went to take it away from him he screamed...yep that's right...screamed. It was the first time I have ever taken anything away from him and gotten that reaction. So immediately I gave it back to him...I mean I only took it away cause I figured he was done with it...how wrong was I... and he told me so! When the time came a little later to take it away, I just distracted him with something else and he was fine. He never even realized the sippy cup was gone.
Each day parenthood brings new experiences. The three of us learn, teach, and love constantly and freely. It's a wonderful thing!
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Jesse's first Father's Day!
Each day brings wonderment, excitement and extended joy with Jaiden. From the time he awakes in the morning until the time he lays his heavy and I mean heavy head down in his crib.
We have our schedule and for the most part we keep pretty true to it. It seems to make everyone happy and it's easier for all of us. Jaiden usually awakes around 7am or 7:30am always with a big smile. He has a few long naps during the day and as long as we are on schedule he has his last bottle which is his 5th bottle for the day around 7pm or 7:30pm. He is in bed by 8pm.
We have our ritual... I put him down, read him his book, "Goodnight Moon", kiss him goodnight, shut his curtain, turn on his little light, swaddle him( yes he likes to be swaddled...still) give him his Binky, turn on his mobile, kiss him goodnight again and walk out. Asleep he goes...until morning. Sometimes he wakes around 4am for his Binky and then back to sleep until he really wakes up which is around 7am.
Jesse has his morning ritual with him. He feeds him at 7am, sings to him, plays with him and does his guy thing with him. I hear both of them laughing and laughing bringing a huge smile to my face. It is in those moments that the world is simply perfect.
We celebrated Jesse's first Father's Day. Oh how I wanted it to be extra special and apparently I succeeded. I let Jess stay in bed and I fed Jaiden at 7am, and then I brought him into bed with us and we all hung out in the big white puffy cloud. Jesse opened his gifts and Jaiden helped by ripping the paper. How fun is that? The day continued to be so much fun celebrating all day with my parents and then Jesse's parents. At one point in the morning I thought to myself how glorious... Jesse is loving up his little son and by the look in his son's eyes you could tell he was loving up his Daddy. Daddy... what a great word...Jesse is now officially a Daddy. Sometimes I still refer to him as MacDaddy...cause Daddy's got it goin on!
We have our schedule and for the most part we keep pretty true to it. It seems to make everyone happy and it's easier for all of us. Jaiden usually awakes around 7am or 7:30am always with a big smile. He has a few long naps during the day and as long as we are on schedule he has his last bottle which is his 5th bottle for the day around 7pm or 7:30pm. He is in bed by 8pm.
We have our ritual... I put him down, read him his book, "Goodnight Moon", kiss him goodnight, shut his curtain, turn on his little light, swaddle him( yes he likes to be swaddled...still) give him his Binky, turn on his mobile, kiss him goodnight again and walk out. Asleep he goes...until morning. Sometimes he wakes around 4am for his Binky and then back to sleep until he really wakes up which is around 7am.
Jesse has his morning ritual with him. He feeds him at 7am, sings to him, plays with him and does his guy thing with him. I hear both of them laughing and laughing bringing a huge smile to my face. It is in those moments that the world is simply perfect.
We celebrated Jesse's first Father's Day. Oh how I wanted it to be extra special and apparently I succeeded. I let Jess stay in bed and I fed Jaiden at 7am, and then I brought him into bed with us and we all hung out in the big white puffy cloud. Jesse opened his gifts and Jaiden helped by ripping the paper. How fun is that? The day continued to be so much fun celebrating all day with my parents and then Jesse's parents. At one point in the morning I thought to myself how glorious... Jesse is loving up his little son and by the look in his son's eyes you could tell he was loving up his Daddy. Daddy... what a great word...Jesse is now officially a Daddy. Sometimes I still refer to him as MacDaddy...cause Daddy's got it goin on!
Monday, June 15, 2009
5 MONTH BD
Where has the time gone?...can't believe the last time I wrote Jaiden was just 4 months old and on last Friday he turned 5 months old. He is more delicious than I ever imagined, and I still eat him every chance I get.
This last month has been so much fun. The constant giggling, rolling over, yes he has rolled over from his tummy to his back. Still working on going from his back to his tummy but it ain't easy when you have such a heavy thigh! We bought a Bumbo chair for Jaiden to sit in. The first time we sat him in it, we had to squeeze his left thigh between the leg separator because it would not fit in any other way. The funniest was when we took him out. I picked him up and the chair stuck to his bottom...like glue! We were busting up. He joins us at the dinner table in his big boy chair, sitting up tall, and eye balling us while we stuff our faces. He's going to like food, which we are going to introduce him to next month. Our pediatrician is big on not starting food until 6 months unless the child is having trouble sleeping or needs to gain weight. Thankfully we do not have a problem with either one.
Just the other day, Jaiden found his voice. He will lay on his back and screech as loud and long as he can, and then he waits for us to do it back to him, so he can do it again. We play this over and over again...both Jess and I can't help but crack up. He also gets laughing for a long time, and we laugh with him and just as hard. Thinking about it makes me laugh.
This weekend my dear nephew Zach who was the Jaiden connection was married. We traveled up North for the weekend to celebrate. Zach's Mother-in-law who was also our connection to Jaiden got to see Jaiden and she had not seen him since he was 8 days old. It was wonderful to see the Minnesota bunch. The wedding was absolutely magical...held at the Firestone Winery...and Zach's bride Darcie was stunningly beautiful. Everyone had an amazing time.
Our first overnight weekend with the little guy went very well except for the first night. Not sure if it was completely him, or both he and I. Neither one of us slept very well that night, I guess it took us a day to get into our groove. No one could tell that Jaiden didn't sleep well cause he was as happy as could be, now for me, that's a different story. The bags under my eyes said it all, I tried to cover them up with make-up but not sure it really worked. And the reason I say this is more than one person said to me, " you look tired." Not a good sign.
Each day I fall more deeply in love with little Jaid...how can I love him more than yesterday? I suppose my heart is growing and expanding. Never knew this kind of love before...it's deep, raw, electric, explosive and so much more.
My guess is Jaiden is now close to 22lbs and growing in length for sure. We are not going to a 5 month appointment so I will not get a true weight and length until next month. All I know is that Jaiden is our bundle of joy!
This last month has been so much fun. The constant giggling, rolling over, yes he has rolled over from his tummy to his back. Still working on going from his back to his tummy but it ain't easy when you have such a heavy thigh! We bought a Bumbo chair for Jaiden to sit in. The first time we sat him in it, we had to squeeze his left thigh between the leg separator because it would not fit in any other way. The funniest was when we took him out. I picked him up and the chair stuck to his bottom...like glue! We were busting up. He joins us at the dinner table in his big boy chair, sitting up tall, and eye balling us while we stuff our faces. He's going to like food, which we are going to introduce him to next month. Our pediatrician is big on not starting food until 6 months unless the child is having trouble sleeping or needs to gain weight. Thankfully we do not have a problem with either one.
Just the other day, Jaiden found his voice. He will lay on his back and screech as loud and long as he can, and then he waits for us to do it back to him, so he can do it again. We play this over and over again...both Jess and I can't help but crack up. He also gets laughing for a long time, and we laugh with him and just as hard. Thinking about it makes me laugh.
This weekend my dear nephew Zach who was the Jaiden connection was married. We traveled up North for the weekend to celebrate. Zach's Mother-in-law who was also our connection to Jaiden got to see Jaiden and she had not seen him since he was 8 days old. It was wonderful to see the Minnesota bunch. The wedding was absolutely magical...held at the Firestone Winery...and Zach's bride Darcie was stunningly beautiful. Everyone had an amazing time.
Our first overnight weekend with the little guy went very well except for the first night. Not sure if it was completely him, or both he and I. Neither one of us slept very well that night, I guess it took us a day to get into our groove. No one could tell that Jaiden didn't sleep well cause he was as happy as could be, now for me, that's a different story. The bags under my eyes said it all, I tried to cover them up with make-up but not sure it really worked. And the reason I say this is more than one person said to me, " you look tired." Not a good sign.
Each day I fall more deeply in love with little Jaid...how can I love him more than yesterday? I suppose my heart is growing and expanding. Never knew this kind of love before...it's deep, raw, electric, explosive and so much more.
My guess is Jaiden is now close to 22lbs and growing in length for sure. We are not going to a 5 month appointment so I will not get a true weight and length until next month. All I know is that Jaiden is our bundle of joy!
Thursday, May 14, 2009
4 Months Old
Jaiden turned four months old on May 12th...can you believe it? Seems almost impossible!
It came so fast...everyone told us it would go fast and boy were they right.
In the last month we have watched him grow both in size, and developmentally. He now weighs 19lbs 1.4oz and is 26in long. One healthy boy we have! He grabs everything, giggles contagiously for a long time, rolls over on his side but just can't quite get his thigh over, puts everything in his mouth, sizes it up and then squeals. I suppose his squeal length and loudness depends on how much he likes something, because I can not imagine it's for the taste of the plastic, or cloth.
His thighs have gotten much more meatier if that is possible. When he is naked except for his diaper it looks like his diaper is too tight around his thigh because it bulges out the size of an orange. A big yummy extra ball of meat! And what does Mommy do? Eat them, eat them and eat them!
A few weeks ago I told Jess that when we put Jaiden down at night we should just put his passie in and walk away, usually we stay with him for a few minutes until he falls asleep. It was a Thursday night and we both went to put him down, we put his passie in, whispered, "good night, sweet dreams" and left the room. Our hearts tugged a bit wondering if he was thinking, oh sure my parents just walk out on me. We waited and waited anticipating that he would let us know with some kind of vocal opposition that he was not happy...but to our wonderful surprise our little one put himself to sleep without a peep. Of course we were thrilled and still continue this successful routine. However with that said, the week Jaiden was sick he would wake himself up at night coughing and wheezing and I would quickly run in and give him his passie and make sure he was okay. This went on for about 1 1/2 weeks because he was sick. Without realizing it I had created a new routine for my little one which took on a look like this. Sleep by 8pm, wake up at 1am, 2am, 3am, 4am. Each time he would wake up I would run in and give him his passie and he would go right back to sleep but only for about 1 hour when he would wake up again...can you say Chinese torture? Just when I would fall into a deep sleep I would hear him. We have been working on getting back to sleeping through the night without waking up...we are almost there! I still would not have done anything different when Jaiden was sick. As his Mommy I wanted him to know that I would be there any time any hour.
Jesse and I still can not believe we are home with our 4 month old. Sometimes we'll be sitting in the living room talking or for that matter anywhere talking about how unbelievable it is that we now have a 4 month old.
Believe it or not we still fight over who's changing his diaper and who's feeding him his bottle...both of us loving every minute of it. Jesse and I each have a distinct relationship with Jaiden, and Jaiden knows it. Jesse gets Jaiden laughing and giggling all the time. He flies him around the house in his arms, talking "superhero" language. He bounces him high, and exercises him plenty, you know dude kind of stuff. And I, well I'm sweet, gentle and playful in a girlie kind of way. Jaiden doesn't play favorites he just takes it all in with a smile!
It came so fast...everyone told us it would go fast and boy were they right.
In the last month we have watched him grow both in size, and developmentally. He now weighs 19lbs 1.4oz and is 26in long. One healthy boy we have! He grabs everything, giggles contagiously for a long time, rolls over on his side but just can't quite get his thigh over, puts everything in his mouth, sizes it up and then squeals. I suppose his squeal length and loudness depends on how much he likes something, because I can not imagine it's for the taste of the plastic, or cloth.
His thighs have gotten much more meatier if that is possible. When he is naked except for his diaper it looks like his diaper is too tight around his thigh because it bulges out the size of an orange. A big yummy extra ball of meat! And what does Mommy do? Eat them, eat them and eat them!
A few weeks ago I told Jess that when we put Jaiden down at night we should just put his passie in and walk away, usually we stay with him for a few minutes until he falls asleep. It was a Thursday night and we both went to put him down, we put his passie in, whispered, "good night, sweet dreams" and left the room. Our hearts tugged a bit wondering if he was thinking, oh sure my parents just walk out on me. We waited and waited anticipating that he would let us know with some kind of vocal opposition that he was not happy...but to our wonderful surprise our little one put himself to sleep without a peep. Of course we were thrilled and still continue this successful routine. However with that said, the week Jaiden was sick he would wake himself up at night coughing and wheezing and I would quickly run in and give him his passie and make sure he was okay. This went on for about 1 1/2 weeks because he was sick. Without realizing it I had created a new routine for my little one which took on a look like this. Sleep by 8pm, wake up at 1am, 2am, 3am, 4am. Each time he would wake up I would run in and give him his passie and he would go right back to sleep but only for about 1 hour when he would wake up again...can you say Chinese torture? Just when I would fall into a deep sleep I would hear him. We have been working on getting back to sleeping through the night without waking up...we are almost there! I still would not have done anything different when Jaiden was sick. As his Mommy I wanted him to know that I would be there any time any hour.
Jesse and I still can not believe we are home with our 4 month old. Sometimes we'll be sitting in the living room talking or for that matter anywhere talking about how unbelievable it is that we now have a 4 month old.
Believe it or not we still fight over who's changing his diaper and who's feeding him his bottle...both of us loving every minute of it. Jesse and I each have a distinct relationship with Jaiden, and Jaiden knows it. Jesse gets Jaiden laughing and giggling all the time. He flies him around the house in his arms, talking "superhero" language. He bounces him high, and exercises him plenty, you know dude kind of stuff. And I, well I'm sweet, gentle and playful in a girlie kind of way. Jaiden doesn't play favorites he just takes it all in with a smile!
Monday, May 11, 2009
My 1st Mother's Day
How I have longed to celebrate Mother's Day, not because of the special recognition nor the gifts but because it would finally mean that I am a Mommy.
The day was special. As soon as Jesse heard Jaiden he ran to get him and bring him to me in bed. His beautiful flirty eyes penetrated my heart and with his big bright smile he said..."Happy Mother's Day!" For a single minute Jaiden and I connected on a different dimension where he knew that this day symbolically meant more to me than almost any other day. It was a true celebration.
I know this comes as a surprise but I did not buy Jaiden a new outfit for this day (what's wrong with me?), however he wore a onesie that said,"My Mom's tattoo is bigger than yours."
I received an out pour of cards from friends and family in addition to many e-mails and text messages all wishing me a wonderful Mother's Day! Amazing. Don't worry you all, everyone is off the hook next year and the years following. I know it was because it was my 1st!
I even received a text a few days prior to Mother's Day from Kelsie wishing me a Happy almost Mother's Day. I cried. She is really amazing! I thought about her for a long time. Wondering what her heart must feel like on this particular Mother's Day. Was she going to reflect on the positive or settle into a black darkness? I can only hope that her heart was full knowing that the child she gave birth to was in the arms of his Mommy being loved up all day long.
We relished the day in the presence of our Mother's...celebrating.
The day was special. As soon as Jesse heard Jaiden he ran to get him and bring him to me in bed. His beautiful flirty eyes penetrated my heart and with his big bright smile he said..."Happy Mother's Day!" For a single minute Jaiden and I connected on a different dimension where he knew that this day symbolically meant more to me than almost any other day. It was a true celebration.
I know this comes as a surprise but I did not buy Jaiden a new outfit for this day (what's wrong with me?), however he wore a onesie that said,"My Mom's tattoo is bigger than yours."
I received an out pour of cards from friends and family in addition to many e-mails and text messages all wishing me a wonderful Mother's Day! Amazing. Don't worry you all, everyone is off the hook next year and the years following. I know it was because it was my 1st!
I even received a text a few days prior to Mother's Day from Kelsie wishing me a Happy almost Mother's Day. I cried. She is really amazing! I thought about her for a long time. Wondering what her heart must feel like on this particular Mother's Day. Was she going to reflect on the positive or settle into a black darkness? I can only hope that her heart was full knowing that the child she gave birth to was in the arms of his Mommy being loved up all day long.
We relished the day in the presence of our Mother's...celebrating.
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Aching heart
For the first time my heart aches as a Mommy.
A week or so ago I had the flu that turned into a cold. I actually NEVER get sick, but when I do I go down hard. I was home last Thursday and Friday hardly lifting my head off the pillow.
I tried my hardest not to breath on my beautiful little boy, and not to kiss him for over a week which was pure torture.
Unfortunately the bug that I had I passed onto Jaiden. Last Friday I could hear a slight wheeze and by Saturday he just was not himself. I tried to get him into the see the Doctor on Saturday at the day clinic but they had no appointments. Jess and I had discussed his sickness but at that point decided not to take him to urgent care- to ride it out.
By Sunday night he was coughing so hard it hurt me, and wheezing terribly. My heart ached. I was asthmatic as a child and I know how terrible it feels not to be able to breath. I wanted so badly to comfort him, touching him in a way that my hands covered his weak body as he layed still. I asked the powers that be to please let me take his pain away. With each breath I took standing over him, I tried my hardest to suck the poison out of him...but no luck. He just got worse.
Jesse took him to the Doctors on Monday morning, and thank goodness she did not look at him like why the heck did you not bring him in any earlier. She calmed the parental fear immediately and reassured him that it was a viral infection and not pneumonia. She gave him a breathing treatment and sent him home with a nebulizer which we have been giving him every 4 hours. The first time we gave it to him, the apparatus scared him. I tried to show him what it was all about before putting the mask on him but sadly it was not helpful. We have been giving him breathing treatments for a few days now and it has gotten much easier. He is definitely a trooper and not a cry baby. Yes he cries a little but I would cry too.
This experience has been different than any experience before and I am sure we will have many other new experiences as Mommy andDaddy.
When I came home tonight I could not hold myself back from my sweet boy and kissed him over and over and over again.
Jesse and I put our son down to sleep just a little while ago knowing he is getting better and tomorrow will be a better day!
A week or so ago I had the flu that turned into a cold. I actually NEVER get sick, but when I do I go down hard. I was home last Thursday and Friday hardly lifting my head off the pillow.
I tried my hardest not to breath on my beautiful little boy, and not to kiss him for over a week which was pure torture.
Unfortunately the bug that I had I passed onto Jaiden. Last Friday I could hear a slight wheeze and by Saturday he just was not himself. I tried to get him into the see the Doctor on Saturday at the day clinic but they had no appointments. Jess and I had discussed his sickness but at that point decided not to take him to urgent care- to ride it out.
By Sunday night he was coughing so hard it hurt me, and wheezing terribly. My heart ached. I was asthmatic as a child and I know how terrible it feels not to be able to breath. I wanted so badly to comfort him, touching him in a way that my hands covered his weak body as he layed still. I asked the powers that be to please let me take his pain away. With each breath I took standing over him, I tried my hardest to suck the poison out of him...but no luck. He just got worse.
Jesse took him to the Doctors on Monday morning, and thank goodness she did not look at him like why the heck did you not bring him in any earlier. She calmed the parental fear immediately and reassured him that it was a viral infection and not pneumonia. She gave him a breathing treatment and sent him home with a nebulizer which we have been giving him every 4 hours. The first time we gave it to him, the apparatus scared him. I tried to show him what it was all about before putting the mask on him but sadly it was not helpful. We have been giving him breathing treatments for a few days now and it has gotten much easier. He is definitely a trooper and not a cry baby. Yes he cries a little but I would cry too.
This experience has been different than any experience before and I am sure we will have many other new experiences as Mommy andDaddy.
When I came home tonight I could not hold myself back from my sweet boy and kissed him over and over and over again.
Jesse and I put our son down to sleep just a little while ago knowing he is getting better and tomorrow will be a better day!
Thursday, April 9, 2009
3 Months Old
Jaiden woke up a little after 8am and we needed to leave our house by 8:30am to make it to his 3 month Doctors appt. Jesse quickly gave him a bottle and we changed his diaper. We questioned keeping him in his Jammies but did it anyways. We figured how bad could he really smell.
Usually it is playtime after his bottle at this hour but not today he was stuck in his car seat. He was still a good boy.
The nurse escorted us into the examining room, we took his clothes off and quickly put him on the scale. Both of us were anxious to see how much he weighed. A whopping 16lbs 15.4oz, and 24 1/2 in long. Our guess was close so it was not a surprise. When the Doctor walked in she said,"OMG...look at that healthy baby" and then we all laughed. She shared with us that he is in the 95% for his weight and 75% for his length. We have a growing boy on/in our hands I say. She examined him quickly and told us to just keep doing what we are doing.
Jaiden turned 3 months on Sunday. It is unbelievable that we are home now with a 3 month old. When I am talking to people and I tell them I have a 3 month old, as soon as the words come out of my mouth, my heart skips a beat and I have to stop from pinching myself in public. He is our little miracle.
Let me tell you about some more new things Jaiden is doing. He found his hands about a week ago.He brings his fist up to his face and opens his hand and will try to shove the whole thing in his mouth. He doesn't realize how big his hands are! We've definitely have an "oral" child! He wants to put everything in his mouth. It is amazing to watch him have so much control of his arms and hands which seemed to just happen over night. He brings his hands together sometimes as if he is praying and now and then he will interlock them holding each tight. Jaiden now pulls his own little toys down and then releases them so they make a noise as they go up. He plays for a very long time on his favorite Einstein mat exploring every little detail and is great at entertaining himself. The other night after his bottle I had him sitting up on my lap and I was facing the TV. He just sat there with one hand on the arm rest chilling out watching TV for seriously about 1/2 hour. He was mesmerized.He can hold his head up pretty sturdy and gets to giggling really hard on a regular basis. We bought him a bouncer that you hang from the door way. He's too small for it, but we propped him up with a towel behind him so he would sit upright and not lean too forward. He was so funny, touching his tippy toes on the ground and giving himself a push up. He would surprise himself bouncing and we would bust up laughing. His facial expressions said it all.
I know I have mentioned this before but one of my favorite hours of the day is when Jaiden is first waking up. I approach the crib with a "good morning Jaiden" and he instantly looks up at me, smiles and gives himself the biggest stretch I have ever seen. First his left side, then his right side, then his left side again, he rubs his eyes, and arches his back before he is done with his morning ritual. Once he is wide eyed, he cracks another smile and then the talking begins. Oh can he talk, on and on and on. I only wish I could understand what he was saying. I make up in my mind what I think he says and answer him back. Back and forth we go for awhile and ever so often he begins to belly ache laugh. Now that is the BEST...laughing! What a great way to start my day!
Our child care provider is teaching him sign language and before I know it he is going to be telling me he wants his bottle with a hand gesture. Sometimes I think he signs it to me now.
Jesse is teaching him how to count to 2 with his fingers, and we swear he does it..he gives us the "peace" sign! 3 months old and spreading "peace", now that's what I"m talking about!
Each day there is something new. His hair grows a bit, his legs get longer, his eyes get bigger, his laugh gets louder, his clothes size gets bigger...and each day we are so grateful for our child.
I must run and pack my groovy diaper bag because Jess just told me Jaiden's coming to work with me in the morning. YAHOO!
Promise to write again soon.
.
Usually it is playtime after his bottle at this hour but not today he was stuck in his car seat. He was still a good boy.
The nurse escorted us into the examining room, we took his clothes off and quickly put him on the scale. Both of us were anxious to see how much he weighed. A whopping 16lbs 15.4oz, and 24 1/2 in long. Our guess was close so it was not a surprise. When the Doctor walked in she said,"OMG...look at that healthy baby" and then we all laughed. She shared with us that he is in the 95% for his weight and 75% for his length. We have a growing boy on/in our hands I say. She examined him quickly and told us to just keep doing what we are doing.
Jaiden turned 3 months on Sunday. It is unbelievable that we are home now with a 3 month old. When I am talking to people and I tell them I have a 3 month old, as soon as the words come out of my mouth, my heart skips a beat and I have to stop from pinching myself in public. He is our little miracle.
Let me tell you about some more new things Jaiden is doing. He found his hands about a week ago.He brings his fist up to his face and opens his hand and will try to shove the whole thing in his mouth. He doesn't realize how big his hands are! We've definitely have an "oral" child! He wants to put everything in his mouth. It is amazing to watch him have so much control of his arms and hands which seemed to just happen over night. He brings his hands together sometimes as if he is praying and now and then he will interlock them holding each tight. Jaiden now pulls his own little toys down and then releases them so they make a noise as they go up. He plays for a very long time on his favorite Einstein mat exploring every little detail and is great at entertaining himself. The other night after his bottle I had him sitting up on my lap and I was facing the TV. He just sat there with one hand on the arm rest chilling out watching TV for seriously about 1/2 hour. He was mesmerized.He can hold his head up pretty sturdy and gets to giggling really hard on a regular basis. We bought him a bouncer that you hang from the door way. He's too small for it, but we propped him up with a towel behind him so he would sit upright and not lean too forward. He was so funny, touching his tippy toes on the ground and giving himself a push up. He would surprise himself bouncing and we would bust up laughing. His facial expressions said it all.
I know I have mentioned this before but one of my favorite hours of the day is when Jaiden is first waking up. I approach the crib with a "good morning Jaiden" and he instantly looks up at me, smiles and gives himself the biggest stretch I have ever seen. First his left side, then his right side, then his left side again, he rubs his eyes, and arches his back before he is done with his morning ritual. Once he is wide eyed, he cracks another smile and then the talking begins. Oh can he talk, on and on and on. I only wish I could understand what he was saying. I make up in my mind what I think he says and answer him back. Back and forth we go for awhile and ever so often he begins to belly ache laugh. Now that is the BEST...laughing! What a great way to start my day!
Our child care provider is teaching him sign language and before I know it he is going to be telling me he wants his bottle with a hand gesture. Sometimes I think he signs it to me now.
Jesse is teaching him how to count to 2 with his fingers, and we swear he does it..he gives us the "peace" sign! 3 months old and spreading "peace", now that's what I"m talking about!
Each day there is something new. His hair grows a bit, his legs get longer, his eyes get bigger, his laugh gets louder, his clothes size gets bigger...and each day we are so grateful for our child.
I must run and pack my groovy diaper bag because Jess just told me Jaiden's coming to work with me in the morning. YAHOO!
Promise to write again soon.
.
Monday, March 30, 2009
BABYLICIOUS!
Today our baby turned 11 weeks old. When I think about it in some ways it has gone by so fast and other ways it seems as if he has been with us forever. We all just fit perfectly together.
I have not mentioned the baby's name because of personal reasons, but starting today he is no longer "the baby" he is JAIDEN! I'm coming out!
My husband chose the name Jaiden for a few reasons. He was sitting at his desk one evening, while I was working on the computer and he turned to me and said, "his name is Jaiden." I have always loved the name Aiden for a boy and the name Jade for a girl, so it worked for me. He said he wanted to honor the birth mother's wishes with the name she gave him, using the J and the D from that name. I loved that my husband was so sensitive to Kelsie. I quickly looked up the name Jaiden. I was joyously surprised that it was a Hebrew name which was very important to us, and then when I read what it meant, instantly I knew this would be our child's name. Jaiden means...God Heard. Now how perfect is that? We really believe this to be true! There was one more hidden sign in his name. There was a J a D an E and an N in the first, middle and last name that his birth mother gave him. A sign fore sure! When I look at our son, the only name that really fits him is Jaiden or Jaide for short.
Every day there is something special that happens, some days many special things happen. Both Jesse and I relish in every moment. If one of us is not around to witness something new we instantly call the other to share the story. Not a day goes by without sharing.
One day we left Jaiden on his "under water sea adventure play mat" (which by the way he loves) and when we returned he had turned himself half way around the mat. We kept looking at each other saying, "did you move him?" Nope neither one of us had moved him, he did it all by himself! The other day Jesse called to say that he had been flaring his nostrils at Jaiden repetitively and Jaiden flared back! I was laughing so hard but was not totally convinced until that night when Jaiden flared for me! It is one of the funniest things I have ever seen. Sit for a minute and just picture that. He recently learned that if he kicks against something he can move himself. He gets a reaction and boy does that excite him. On Monday he gave me the best birthday gift ever by sleeping 10hrs...I know hard to believe but it is the honest truth. The best part was I never woke up to check on him!
It is truly amazing how much he has changed since the day we met him. For instance he was born with no eye lashes and now they are long, beginning to get full with a curl. I told him, "you're lucky little guy cause you won't have to borrow your Mommy's eyelash curler." He has eyes that twinkle and lashes that flirt.His hands are pudgy and his knuckles have the cutest darn dimples on them that I have ever seen. His thighs are almost the size of a baseball, and I eat them multiple times a day. His hair is beginning to grow back, guessing it is going to brown. It is also worth mentioning that his big toe looks like a thumb! And yes I eat that too!
Jesse and I still love to change his diaper and feed him no matter what time it is. For all of you who said that would get old, it's not. It just gets better. Sometimes I walk past Jaiden's room and I can hear Jesse and him talking. The other morning I stopped to listen and I over heard Jesse say, "I love you Jaiden...I love you Jaiden...then he pronounced every letter of his name...J A I D E N! My heart sang.
Jesse is a remarkable Daddy. Full of love and laughter. He gets down on the ground and interacts with him, making up all kinds of games. He sings and dances with him and is creative in the way he teaches him new things . I am in awe watching him. From the beginning I have always said that Jesse is the "Baby Whisperer" and that's the truth.
I must say that now I have two boys at home. Jaiden is bringing the kid out in Jesse...as if he needed someone to do that. I can see that the future is going to bring fun, fun and more fun.
Get ready Jaiden...Daddy wants to play!
I have not mentioned the baby's name because of personal reasons, but starting today he is no longer "the baby" he is JAIDEN! I'm coming out!
My husband chose the name Jaiden for a few reasons. He was sitting at his desk one evening, while I was working on the computer and he turned to me and said, "his name is Jaiden." I have always loved the name Aiden for a boy and the name Jade for a girl, so it worked for me. He said he wanted to honor the birth mother's wishes with the name she gave him, using the J and the D from that name. I loved that my husband was so sensitive to Kelsie. I quickly looked up the name Jaiden. I was joyously surprised that it was a Hebrew name which was very important to us, and then when I read what it meant, instantly I knew this would be our child's name. Jaiden means...God Heard. Now how perfect is that? We really believe this to be true! There was one more hidden sign in his name. There was a J a D an E and an N in the first, middle and last name that his birth mother gave him. A sign fore sure! When I look at our son, the only name that really fits him is Jaiden or Jaide for short.
Every day there is something special that happens, some days many special things happen. Both Jesse and I relish in every moment. If one of us is not around to witness something new we instantly call the other to share the story. Not a day goes by without sharing.
One day we left Jaiden on his "under water sea adventure play mat" (which by the way he loves) and when we returned he had turned himself half way around the mat. We kept looking at each other saying, "did you move him?" Nope neither one of us had moved him, he did it all by himself! The other day Jesse called to say that he had been flaring his nostrils at Jaiden repetitively and Jaiden flared back! I was laughing so hard but was not totally convinced until that night when Jaiden flared for me! It is one of the funniest things I have ever seen. Sit for a minute and just picture that. He recently learned that if he kicks against something he can move himself. He gets a reaction and boy does that excite him. On Monday he gave me the best birthday gift ever by sleeping 10hrs...I know hard to believe but it is the honest truth. The best part was I never woke up to check on him!
It is truly amazing how much he has changed since the day we met him. For instance he was born with no eye lashes and now they are long, beginning to get full with a curl. I told him, "you're lucky little guy cause you won't have to borrow your Mommy's eyelash curler." He has eyes that twinkle and lashes that flirt.His hands are pudgy and his knuckles have the cutest darn dimples on them that I have ever seen. His thighs are almost the size of a baseball, and I eat them multiple times a day. His hair is beginning to grow back, guessing it is going to brown. It is also worth mentioning that his big toe looks like a thumb! And yes I eat that too!
Jesse and I still love to change his diaper and feed him no matter what time it is. For all of you who said that would get old, it's not. It just gets better. Sometimes I walk past Jaiden's room and I can hear Jesse and him talking. The other morning I stopped to listen and I over heard Jesse say, "I love you Jaiden...I love you Jaiden...then he pronounced every letter of his name...J A I D E N! My heart sang.
Jesse is a remarkable Daddy. Full of love and laughter. He gets down on the ground and interacts with him, making up all kinds of games. He sings and dances with him and is creative in the way he teaches him new things . I am in awe watching him. From the beginning I have always said that Jesse is the "Baby Whisperer" and that's the truth.
I must say that now I have two boys at home. Jaiden is bringing the kid out in Jesse...as if he needed someone to do that. I can see that the future is going to bring fun, fun and more fun.
Get ready Jaiden...Daddy wants to play!
Thursday, March 5, 2009
2 month Dr.'s appointment
Today was the little guys 2 month Dr's appt. He is just short of 2 months by 7 days. The routine during this visit besides weighing in and being checked is vaccinations.
Right after we entered the examining room the nurse told us to take the baby's clothes off including his diaper. Both Jess and I looked at each other like does she know this baby could very easily pee all over the place? That did not seem to bother her, but we were scared. She then told us to place him on the scale. Now just yesterday my parents, Jess and I all guessed his weight and meant to place a bet but we forgot the bet part.
Anyways wouldn't you know it, big Daddy won...yep he guessed his weight by .2 of an ounce. I was off by a pound but whose counting?
The baby weighs 14lbs 2.2oz. and is 23 1/2 in long. Our Doctor was quite impressed and said he is a very healthy baby and to continue what we are doing. Next the Doctor talked to us about the vaccinations and before we knew it the nurse was back in the room with 3 syringes. I was the one that was feeling the pain before the little guy was even stuck. When the nurse put the injection in Jesse held the baby's hands and we both continued to reassure him that everything was okay...and with each injection the baby cried but only for a minute. You ask if I was crying?...nope but I definitely wanted to make it all better right away. The baby fell asleep in Jesse's arms as soon as the nurse was done.
I realized at some point today that we never really had a "newborn." From the beginning our baby was healthy, solid, and not that fragile . He has made it very easy for us new parents to jump right in and not be afraid.
I kissed his owees tonight before I put him down to sleep, probably more for me than for him. I can hardly stand it that I am kissing owees...who would have ever thought it would be so good.
Can't wait to see what tomorrow brings!
Right after we entered the examining room the nurse told us to take the baby's clothes off including his diaper. Both Jess and I looked at each other like does she know this baby could very easily pee all over the place? That did not seem to bother her, but we were scared. She then told us to place him on the scale. Now just yesterday my parents, Jess and I all guessed his weight and meant to place a bet but we forgot the bet part.
Anyways wouldn't you know it, big Daddy won...yep he guessed his weight by .2 of an ounce. I was off by a pound but whose counting?
The baby weighs 14lbs 2.2oz. and is 23 1/2 in long. Our Doctor was quite impressed and said he is a very healthy baby and to continue what we are doing. Next the Doctor talked to us about the vaccinations and before we knew it the nurse was back in the room with 3 syringes. I was the one that was feeling the pain before the little guy was even stuck. When the nurse put the injection in Jesse held the baby's hands and we both continued to reassure him that everything was okay...and with each injection the baby cried but only for a minute. You ask if I was crying?...nope but I definitely wanted to make it all better right away. The baby fell asleep in Jesse's arms as soon as the nurse was done.
I realized at some point today that we never really had a "newborn." From the beginning our baby was healthy, solid, and not that fragile . He has made it very easy for us new parents to jump right in and not be afraid.
I kissed his owees tonight before I put him down to sleep, probably more for me than for him. I can hardly stand it that I am kissing owees...who would have ever thought it would be so good.
Can't wait to see what tomorrow brings!
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Smiling
Each day I can not wait to greet the baby in his crib come morning hour.As soon as I can hear him, I quickly run to his room ( cause I can hardly stand it) and am overly delighted to his bright smiling face. Smiling...yes smiling. He smiles every morning when he sees my face. Now that in itself could just melt my heart, but it continues all day long. How did I get to be so lucky? There is nothing quite like it...a smile!
We have been playing, and investigating our new surroundings. Traveled for a few hours the other day on foot with the little one riding in a baby bjourn face out strapped around me. It was so delicious. After about 1/2 hour he feel asleep and I just kept walking bouncing him while he gripped my fingers and listened to me breathing hard as I climbed the hills. Not so easy when you have a 14pd baby strapped on you. Actually not sure how much he weighs but we will find out on Thursday when he has his 2 month Doctor's appt. Yep 2 months. Actually he will be 7 weeks and 4days old on his appt day, but they call it his 2 month appt. I am told he will have a few shots but he can count on Mommy and Daddy being right there to help ease the pain.
Can not believe how fast the time has gone. Here we are at home with a 7 week old. Impossible it seems. Those tortured anxious days of waiting and not knowing are over. Yes there will be other challenging days in our lives but those particular days are over. And I would live through them all over again for the 3 of us to be together.
I layed down on the baby's blanket with him and watched him kick and punch and kick and punch, and swing his arms, and try to eat his fingers wondering what he must be thinking. I do know that he definitely recognizes both Jesse and my voice. He is very sensitive to noise, loves music and can smell his bottle from a mile away.
This was exciting. Saturday late afternoon we attended a party but we were home by 8pm. Partying rock star nights are on hold for now. I gave him a bottle and put him down to sleep at 9:00pm. He did not awake until 5:00am- that's right 8 straight hours of sleep. Now only if I did not check on him a million times to make sure he was still breathing I too would have had an 8 hour sleep. I am hoping that was just the beginning of many many more 8 consecutive hours of sleep.
Sometimes Jess and I will sneak into the baby's room when he is asleep and just listen to the funny noises he makes, and watch his face twitch and body move.Quietly we laugh and pinch each other. Then we must somehow leave his room without waking him, and that is a task in itself because the hardwood floors squeak and if you step on the wrong one, well you wake up the baby. It's become a game for us...getting out of his room. One foot 10feet in front of the other almost doing the splits so not to step on that one squeaky piece of wood floor. Kind of like twister. Last night Jesse got out of the room in 2 steps which truthfully only a pro limbo player could do. Never knew he had it in him. You learn something new every day.
In awe with each day, thankful and more grateful than ever before.
We have been playing, and investigating our new surroundings. Traveled for a few hours the other day on foot with the little one riding in a baby bjourn face out strapped around me. It was so delicious. After about 1/2 hour he feel asleep and I just kept walking bouncing him while he gripped my fingers and listened to me breathing hard as I climbed the hills. Not so easy when you have a 14pd baby strapped on you. Actually not sure how much he weighs but we will find out on Thursday when he has his 2 month Doctor's appt. Yep 2 months. Actually he will be 7 weeks and 4days old on his appt day, but they call it his 2 month appt. I am told he will have a few shots but he can count on Mommy and Daddy being right there to help ease the pain.
Can not believe how fast the time has gone. Here we are at home with a 7 week old. Impossible it seems. Those tortured anxious days of waiting and not knowing are over. Yes there will be other challenging days in our lives but those particular days are over. And I would live through them all over again for the 3 of us to be together.
I layed down on the baby's blanket with him and watched him kick and punch and kick and punch, and swing his arms, and try to eat his fingers wondering what he must be thinking. I do know that he definitely recognizes both Jesse and my voice. He is very sensitive to noise, loves music and can smell his bottle from a mile away.
This was exciting. Saturday late afternoon we attended a party but we were home by 8pm. Partying rock star nights are on hold for now. I gave him a bottle and put him down to sleep at 9:00pm. He did not awake until 5:00am- that's right 8 straight hours of sleep. Now only if I did not check on him a million times to make sure he was still breathing I too would have had an 8 hour sleep. I am hoping that was just the beginning of many many more 8 consecutive hours of sleep.
Sometimes Jess and I will sneak into the baby's room when he is asleep and just listen to the funny noises he makes, and watch his face twitch and body move.Quietly we laugh and pinch each other. Then we must somehow leave his room without waking him, and that is a task in itself because the hardwood floors squeak and if you step on the wrong one, well you wake up the baby. It's become a game for us...getting out of his room. One foot 10feet in front of the other almost doing the splits so not to step on that one squeaky piece of wood floor. Kind of like twister. Last night Jesse got out of the room in 2 steps which truthfully only a pro limbo player could do. Never knew he had it in him. You learn something new every day.
In awe with each day, thankful and more grateful than ever before.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Kelsie
Kelsie turned 17 on Feb 12th. She is a remarkable young girl with so much potential. In the small amount of time that she has been on earth she has endured many challenges and has risen above them. She is wise beyond her years, and savvy in ways only adults understand.
The instant we met I felt a connection. Kelsie is not an over affectionate young girl, and behind that you can feel a sense of not wanting to be disappointed. She is quite guarded and rightfully so, as anyone of us would be had we walked in her shoes.
If you dig deep enough the warmth and love will catch you by surprise. She is raw at times exposing herself, although she never wears it on her sleeve.
I admire her in ways I never knew were possible. Not only is she smart, charming, loving, and mature. She is not afraid to talk about what she feels, which for the most part I have found quite unusual for a 16 now 17 year old. She is brave like only a few I have known, and she is more giving than most of us will ever be.
I don't expect her to understand completely what she has given us, but one day she will. As much as she has given us I do feel we all needed each other equally. It was a perfect match.
Kelsie deserves to have someone encouraging her to be the best she can be, and to give her guidance. She is exceptionally bright and with direction I know she will find her way.
I am profoundly proud of Kelsie and the decision she made just weeks ago to place her child with us. She has given not only us the gift of life, but she has given life to our son. Ultimately by making this decision she has also given life to herself. My hope is that she slowly spreads her wings and allows them to take her on a successful flight. One that her biological son would be proud of.
Today and everyday that follows our hearts will be connected with Kelsie's and we will hold so close to us the remarkable young girl that gave us life.
The instant we met I felt a connection. Kelsie is not an over affectionate young girl, and behind that you can feel a sense of not wanting to be disappointed. She is quite guarded and rightfully so, as anyone of us would be had we walked in her shoes.
If you dig deep enough the warmth and love will catch you by surprise. She is raw at times exposing herself, although she never wears it on her sleeve.
I admire her in ways I never knew were possible. Not only is she smart, charming, loving, and mature. She is not afraid to talk about what she feels, which for the most part I have found quite unusual for a 16 now 17 year old. She is brave like only a few I have known, and she is more giving than most of us will ever be.
I don't expect her to understand completely what she has given us, but one day she will. As much as she has given us I do feel we all needed each other equally. It was a perfect match.
Kelsie deserves to have someone encouraging her to be the best she can be, and to give her guidance. She is exceptionally bright and with direction I know she will find her way.
I am profoundly proud of Kelsie and the decision she made just weeks ago to place her child with us. She has given not only us the gift of life, but she has given life to our son. Ultimately by making this decision she has also given life to herself. My hope is that she slowly spreads her wings and allows them to take her on a successful flight. One that her biological son would be proud of.
Today and everyday that follows our hearts will be connected with Kelsie's and we will hold so close to us the remarkable young girl that gave us life.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
1 month old today
Our beautiful son is one month old today. Unbelievable.
It was only 21 weeks ago that we returned home from the Ukraine devastated. At that point being a parent was a dream that had been shattered. Although in our hearts we believed that it was all going to work out somehow. And here we are today, in our home with a 1 month old.
It is magical what he brings to us. Believe it or not, I have been told recently that I am more gentle more patient and less aggressive. For those of you that know me I am always on...focused...with a mission.
I take it as a compliment.
I have settled into a very flexible routine dictated by the little one. Funny to think that sometimes there are dishes in the sink, and occasionally our bed might not be made, and it's okay. He is giving us permission to forgo the structure and be in the moment. Without hesitation we gladly are taking on the new lifestyle...and it feels wonderful.
In the past month we have changed more diapers than ever before, we have been awaken by the sound of a crying baby, we have stayed awake in the wee hours soothing our child, we have eaten dinner separately in order to feed the little one, and we have shopped in the formula/diaper isle at the grocery store, (used to always skip that isle) . Just a few of the new things we have done in the past month and grateful for the experience.
Today is a very special day- it is Kelsie's 17th birthday. I will dedicate my next blog to her.
I'll write soon- Mommy hears the baby cooing and I don't want to miss it!
It was only 21 weeks ago that we returned home from the Ukraine devastated. At that point being a parent was a dream that had been shattered. Although in our hearts we believed that it was all going to work out somehow. And here we are today, in our home with a 1 month old.
It is magical what he brings to us. Believe it or not, I have been told recently that I am more gentle more patient and less aggressive. For those of you that know me I am always on...focused...with a mission.
I take it as a compliment.
I have settled into a very flexible routine dictated by the little one. Funny to think that sometimes there are dishes in the sink, and occasionally our bed might not be made, and it's okay. He is giving us permission to forgo the structure and be in the moment. Without hesitation we gladly are taking on the new lifestyle...and it feels wonderful.
In the past month we have changed more diapers than ever before, we have been awaken by the sound of a crying baby, we have stayed awake in the wee hours soothing our child, we have eaten dinner separately in order to feed the little one, and we have shopped in the formula/diaper isle at the grocery store, (used to always skip that isle) . Just a few of the new things we have done in the past month and grateful for the experience.
Today is a very special day- it is Kelsie's 17th birthday. I will dedicate my next blog to her.
I'll write soon- Mommy hears the baby cooing and I don't want to miss it!
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Our Miracle
2 days ago our son turned 4 weeks old. Boy did that go fast. Each day we relish in this miracle, as we watch him change, learn, and interact with us.
For the most part he drinks a 4 oz bottle every 2-3 hours, plays for awhile, and sleeps. He definately knows when it is night time, the feedings are less, and he goes right back to sleep without a peep...okay well sometimes there is a peep.
The baby has been sleeping in a bassinet next to our bed, and when he wakes at night to feed, I take him in his room so that I don't wake Jess up.
On Monday morning at his 4am feeding I laid him down for the first time in his newly built crib for 1 minute so I could wet a wash cloth. When I returned in less than a minute he was sound asleep. No sheet, no bedding, just our beautiful son in his crib...sleeping! Sounds to me like he likes his crib. I woke this morning to find him talking to himself, just checking out the scenery. I was so amused that I just stood there listening, trying to figure out what he was saying. To the best of my deciphering skills I would say he he was trying to tell me how happy he is.
The three of us are now a family. Family has always been extremely important to me. The unit in which one grows and learns. I grew up in a wonderful family with 3 sisters of whom one is my twin, and two extraordinary people who I call my parents. My parents instilled in us to always be our best. To recognize and embrace the differences we all have. They exposed us to different cultures, different types of people, and more importantly they taught us that each of us could make a difference.
It was never an unusual thought for me to adopt a child. I never questioned what my love for an adopted child would be like. In my heart I always knew my child whether he came from my tummy or not would be mine and that I would love him unconditionally and protect him always.
We have already started to talk to our son about his adoption. There are many different philosophy's on how and when to approach the subject. For Jess and I it feels natural to simply talk about it. Our feelings are that if we give him the pieces of the puzzle to put together he will be less likely to imagine and create ideas about his adoption. We intend to give him as much information as he needs.
I want my child to grow up feeling proud of his adopted status. I want him to positively identify himself as our child. To teach others whose shallow thinking may inhibit them from extending themselves wholeheartedly. I want my son to move gracefully among people's prejudices. I will prepare him for a world where not everyone may see him this way. But one thing is foresure he will always be our child!
Our son has already taught us tremendous lessons about believing, about love, hope and about dreaming. Lessons that one day we will teach him.
It's great to be Mommy and Daddy!
For the most part he drinks a 4 oz bottle every 2-3 hours, plays for awhile, and sleeps. He definately knows when it is night time, the feedings are less, and he goes right back to sleep without a peep...okay well sometimes there is a peep.
The baby has been sleeping in a bassinet next to our bed, and when he wakes at night to feed, I take him in his room so that I don't wake Jess up.
On Monday morning at his 4am feeding I laid him down for the first time in his newly built crib for 1 minute so I could wet a wash cloth. When I returned in less than a minute he was sound asleep. No sheet, no bedding, just our beautiful son in his crib...sleeping! Sounds to me like he likes his crib. I woke this morning to find him talking to himself, just checking out the scenery. I was so amused that I just stood there listening, trying to figure out what he was saying. To the best of my deciphering skills I would say he he was trying to tell me how happy he is.
The three of us are now a family. Family has always been extremely important to me. The unit in which one grows and learns. I grew up in a wonderful family with 3 sisters of whom one is my twin, and two extraordinary people who I call my parents. My parents instilled in us to always be our best. To recognize and embrace the differences we all have. They exposed us to different cultures, different types of people, and more importantly they taught us that each of us could make a difference.
It was never an unusual thought for me to adopt a child. I never questioned what my love for an adopted child would be like. In my heart I always knew my child whether he came from my tummy or not would be mine and that I would love him unconditionally and protect him always.
We have already started to talk to our son about his adoption. There are many different philosophy's on how and when to approach the subject. For Jess and I it feels natural to simply talk about it. Our feelings are that if we give him the pieces of the puzzle to put together he will be less likely to imagine and create ideas about his adoption. We intend to give him as much information as he needs.
I want my child to grow up feeling proud of his adopted status. I want him to positively identify himself as our child. To teach others whose shallow thinking may inhibit them from extending themselves wholeheartedly. I want my son to move gracefully among people's prejudices. I will prepare him for a world where not everyone may see him this way. But one thing is foresure he will always be our child!
Our son has already taught us tremendous lessons about believing, about love, hope and about dreaming. Lessons that one day we will teach him.
It's great to be Mommy and Daddy!
Monday, February 2, 2009
Finally 3
WHOO HOO- It is official- we have a son!
How long have we wanted to be 3? Years. Our adoption process began in the parking lot of Kaiser hospital on a warm afternoon in 2004. A day I will never forget...the day we knew we would never be pregnant.
Since that time we have put our efforts towards adopting a child, without ever dreaming it would take us so long to find our son. I never imagined our child to be a newborn, my idea was different. Now I can not imagine missing out on the first 21days of our sons life. It has been wondrous.
As I said before the brick walls are not there to keep us out just to show us how much we want something. And boy did we want a child. For those of you that have followed our journey you know how many walls we hit along the way. I can honestly say that every wall was worth the last 21 days!
Both Jess and I woke up this morning feeling completely uneasy. Of all days we wanted this day to pass quickly, but each hour seemed to drag on. I kept myself busy doing things around the house and tried not to look at the clock every five minutes. At a few different times during the day my heart began to race uncontrollably as if I was going to have a panic attack. Somehow I talked myself into a normal breathing pattern and became calm.
It was around 4:30 when we received a message from Deb in Minnesota saying, "congratulations, it's official." For some reason we thought we needed to wait until midnight tonight for it to be official, but thank goodness we were wrong. Kelsie had up until 4:30pm Minnesota time today to change her mind. What an incredible gift this young girl has given us...our gift to her will be that we raise a productive, responsible, loving human being.
Again I am reminded of the pieces of the puzzle that had to come together to make this all happen...it is a miracle!
Jesse and I are resonating in the powerful exchange of life. An abundance of deep emotions surfacing. The three of us will now embark on this new journey together.
Thanks to all of you across the US who helped to manifest the positive energy that carried us to this point. Believing that everything happens exactly the way it is supposed to.
Going to smooch the baby and squeeze my husband and tell him how thankful I am of him that he never gave up, even after his heart was broken.
I will write again soon- so much to say- All our love
How long have we wanted to be 3? Years. Our adoption process began in the parking lot of Kaiser hospital on a warm afternoon in 2004. A day I will never forget...the day we knew we would never be pregnant.
Since that time we have put our efforts towards adopting a child, without ever dreaming it would take us so long to find our son. I never imagined our child to be a newborn, my idea was different. Now I can not imagine missing out on the first 21days of our sons life. It has been wondrous.
As I said before the brick walls are not there to keep us out just to show us how much we want something. And boy did we want a child. For those of you that have followed our journey you know how many walls we hit along the way. I can honestly say that every wall was worth the last 21 days!
Both Jess and I woke up this morning feeling completely uneasy. Of all days we wanted this day to pass quickly, but each hour seemed to drag on. I kept myself busy doing things around the house and tried not to look at the clock every five minutes. At a few different times during the day my heart began to race uncontrollably as if I was going to have a panic attack. Somehow I talked myself into a normal breathing pattern and became calm.
It was around 4:30 when we received a message from Deb in Minnesota saying, "congratulations, it's official." For some reason we thought we needed to wait until midnight tonight for it to be official, but thank goodness we were wrong. Kelsie had up until 4:30pm Minnesota time today to change her mind. What an incredible gift this young girl has given us...our gift to her will be that we raise a productive, responsible, loving human being.
Again I am reminded of the pieces of the puzzle that had to come together to make this all happen...it is a miracle!
Jesse and I are resonating in the powerful exchange of life. An abundance of deep emotions surfacing. The three of us will now embark on this new journey together.
Thanks to all of you across the US who helped to manifest the positive energy that carried us to this point. Believing that everything happens exactly the way it is supposed to.
Going to smooch the baby and squeeze my husband and tell him how thankful I am of him that he never gave up, even after his heart was broken.
I will write again soon- so much to say- All our love
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Almost there!
The past week has been wonderful. We are settling into a routine and loving every moment of it. Up until this point not sure what I imagined it to be like, but it is better than anything I have ever experienced.
The other afternoon the baby fell asleep on me and quietly I feel into a deep sleep. The feel of his newborn skin against mine, the fresh smell of his scent softly creeping into my nose, the grip of his hand around my finger, all of it transcending me adrift on a cloud. No worries, not a single stress, just he and I floating together somewhere in another dimension. I awoke hours later to find his hand still wrapped around my finger, and his sweet body sprawled out sideways on my chest. It just doesn't get better than that.
For so long Jess and I dreamed about our little one and had no idea that in just a few weeks our hearts would be so fulfilled.
We have visited with Grandparents quite a bit this last week and it is pure joy to watch a different generation and their magical reaction to the baby.
I did not write much this past week mainly because I have been holding my breath and simply praying that Feb 2nd will come and go very quickly. Jess and I are so anxious to be able to fully BREATH!
Thankfully we have wonderful friends who have channeled positive energy across the US. Collectively we are going to make this happen!
Moments ago I heard the baby crying and within minutes he stopped. I must admit Jesse is the "Baby Whisperer." How lucky am I?
More soon-
The other afternoon the baby fell asleep on me and quietly I feel into a deep sleep. The feel of his newborn skin against mine, the fresh smell of his scent softly creeping into my nose, the grip of his hand around my finger, all of it transcending me adrift on a cloud. No worries, not a single stress, just he and I floating together somewhere in another dimension. I awoke hours later to find his hand still wrapped around my finger, and his sweet body sprawled out sideways on my chest. It just doesn't get better than that.
For so long Jess and I dreamed about our little one and had no idea that in just a few weeks our hearts would be so fulfilled.
We have visited with Grandparents quite a bit this last week and it is pure joy to watch a different generation and their magical reaction to the baby.
I did not write much this past week mainly because I have been holding my breath and simply praying that Feb 2nd will come and go very quickly. Jess and I are so anxious to be able to fully BREATH!
Thankfully we have wonderful friends who have channeled positive energy across the US. Collectively we are going to make this happen!
Moments ago I heard the baby crying and within minutes he stopped. I must admit Jesse is the "Baby Whisperer." How lucky am I?
More soon-
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Peaceful Contentment
Jess and I left Minnesota on Wednesday the 21st of January. As we approached the airport a sense of calm excitement filled our bodies. Zach helped us check in because we had our luggage and the baby and truthfully we were alittle uncoordinated... I know hard to believe! We needed to take two planes to get home, the first one landed in Phoenix and the second one in Burbank. Once the plane took off both Jess and I squeezed each others hand and looked into one anothers eyes in almost disbelief. Could we really be taking off on a plane to California with our son in our arms? Actually he was around my waist in a pouch. We had gotten to this point somehow and reality was slowly appearing.
Exiting the airplane and walking on California ground somehow made it all so much more real. With each step the excitement and contentment grew. Janet was waiting for us at baggage claim, what a great welcome home.
The next few days were filled with visitors. Although it sure was needed there was a bigger need, and that was to just be alone with our son. We needed time to take it all in, to wake up with him, feed him, play with him, stare at him, to simply enjoy him. For the past few weeks we were surrounded by people, which we were grateful for, but now we needed some time.
Today my sister Gaby stopped by and thankfully she brought her camera with her. She managed to photograph her nephew between his naps. There is no mistaking that she got more than one brilliant shot. When she left I hugged her extra hard I didn't want to let go. We are home with our child because she made "the call."
It has been an awe inspiring experience for me to watch Jess with his son. There is a new sparkle in Jesse's eye, something I have never seen before.
Each day it is a race between the two of us to get to the baby. Whoever gets there first...wins!
Tomorrow is a big day...the baby's first appointment with his Pediatrician. My guess is he weighs 10 lbs the way he is sucking down 4oz each feeding. We are interested in hearing this Doctors philosophy. Unfortunately we did not get to interview this Doctor prior due to insurance policies but she is a referral from my Doctor and I am hoping it's a good fit for us.
Given our nature before long our front door will be open for all those who want to come visit our special miracle. He has no idea how healing he is to so many of us. When you are in his presence you can not help but be affected by his sweet power.
I can hear his cry for more formula but it's too late...Daddy beat me to it!
Exiting the airplane and walking on California ground somehow made it all so much more real. With each step the excitement and contentment grew. Janet was waiting for us at baggage claim, what a great welcome home.
The next few days were filled with visitors. Although it sure was needed there was a bigger need, and that was to just be alone with our son. We needed time to take it all in, to wake up with him, feed him, play with him, stare at him, to simply enjoy him. For the past few weeks we were surrounded by people, which we were grateful for, but now we needed some time.
Today my sister Gaby stopped by and thankfully she brought her camera with her. She managed to photograph her nephew between his naps. There is no mistaking that she got more than one brilliant shot. When she left I hugged her extra hard I didn't want to let go. We are home with our child because she made "the call."
It has been an awe inspiring experience for me to watch Jess with his son. There is a new sparkle in Jesse's eye, something I have never seen before.
Each day it is a race between the two of us to get to the baby. Whoever gets there first...wins!
Tomorrow is a big day...the baby's first appointment with his Pediatrician. My guess is he weighs 10 lbs the way he is sucking down 4oz each feeding. We are interested in hearing this Doctors philosophy. Unfortunately we did not get to interview this Doctor prior due to insurance policies but she is a referral from my Doctor and I am hoping it's a good fit for us.
Given our nature before long our front door will be open for all those who want to come visit our special miracle. He has no idea how healing he is to so many of us. When you are in his presence you can not help but be affected by his sweet power.
I can hear his cry for more formula but it's too late...Daddy beat me to it!
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Home sweet home
Tonight at dinner we received a phone call from our Attorney's legal assistant who said, "I got the approval." Words the we have been waiting to hear. So tomorrow we will be on a flight home to California with our son.
The excitement of getting home brings a warm calm to my body.
How could we be at this point of our adoption? Really it is a miracle, and like I said before all the pieces of the puzzle had to come together. Something much great than us was instrumental in making it all happen. Believing that all things are possible.
Today our little one had his first Doctors appt. We needed to get a signed letter from the Doctor giving us permission to take him on a plane.
He is now 9lbs 5oz, and 22 inches long. I guess the 3oz bottles are working.
It is hard to believe that he is 8 days old. Each day he changes and both Jess and I marvel at it. His hair gets longer, his face gets wider, his fingers grow, and his legs have begun to straighten. Those are just a few of the things.
Tonight Deb came to say goodbye for now. No one had to say too much because we all peacefully understand the tremendous power of what took place between all of us.
We are going to miss everyone here in Minnesota, and although the weather is extremely cold, we actually like it. People move at a slower pace here but I am told that in the summertime there is a much more playful vibe. One would give themselves permission to slow down and nest here during the winters...Something we should all try doing. Jesse and Zach went hockey skating on a huge lake today and yesterday. If outdoor skating rinks were easy to find in California I suppose Jesse would be adding another sport to his list of activities.
The baby is now sleeping in Jesse arms...a sight I have been dreaming about forever. There is no way to articulate the overwhelming sensation that it brings to me. This little guy is going to mean so much to so many of us. There are two people who have said that he has given them a reason to live. Now how powerful is that? He is only 8 days old and he has already made such a difference in the lives of so many. People say he is a lucky guy, but really we are the lucky ones.
California here we come...
The excitement of getting home brings a warm calm to my body.
How could we be at this point of our adoption? Really it is a miracle, and like I said before all the pieces of the puzzle had to come together. Something much great than us was instrumental in making it all happen. Believing that all things are possible.
Today our little one had his first Doctors appt. We needed to get a signed letter from the Doctor giving us permission to take him on a plane.
He is now 9lbs 5oz, and 22 inches long. I guess the 3oz bottles are working.
It is hard to believe that he is 8 days old. Each day he changes and both Jess and I marvel at it. His hair gets longer, his face gets wider, his fingers grow, and his legs have begun to straighten. Those are just a few of the things.
Tonight Deb came to say goodbye for now. No one had to say too much because we all peacefully understand the tremendous power of what took place between all of us.
We are going to miss everyone here in Minnesota, and although the weather is extremely cold, we actually like it. People move at a slower pace here but I am told that in the summertime there is a much more playful vibe. One would give themselves permission to slow down and nest here during the winters...Something we should all try doing. Jesse and Zach went hockey skating on a huge lake today and yesterday. If outdoor skating rinks were easy to find in California I suppose Jesse would be adding another sport to his list of activities.
The baby is now sleeping in Jesse arms...a sight I have been dreaming about forever. There is no way to articulate the overwhelming sensation that it brings to me. This little guy is going to mean so much to so many of us. There are two people who have said that he has given them a reason to live. Now how powerful is that? He is only 8 days old and he has already made such a difference in the lives of so many. People say he is a lucky guy, but really we are the lucky ones.
California here we come...
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Pure Bliss
Where do I begin...It has been pure bliss. We have been enjoying every single minute with our new son, so much so that I have not had a chance to communicate to all of you who have been following our story.
I was going to write about all the challenges we have endured so that you all could get the picture of what we have been going through but I have decided to leave those details out. I am mainly going to share the incredible joy Jess and I are feeling.
The first night we came home with our child was difficult. It was about 7:30pm and we had been at the hospital since 12 noon waiting. We were told Kelsie would be discharged by then, that was not the case. That day was filled with so many emotions but the most difficult part was the transfer of our little son from Kelsie to us.I will paint a picture for you. Kelsie needed to leave the hospital in a wheelchair with the baby in a car seat in her lap. There was an entourage of people around and someone was videotaping, Jesse was told to take the car seat from Kelsie's lap and place it in our car. Kelsie was hysterical, her pain almost unbearable for us to witness. Jess put the car seat in our car and then Kelsie sat in the back seat and sobbed while she said goodbye to the child she just gave birth too. I can not imagine what that must have been like for her, but watching it was extremely difficult. There was absolutely no way for us to keep it together. Tears flowed uncontrollably from our eyes.Our hearts ached so terribly for Kelsie. As we drove away although it was one of the happiest moments for us, our hearts were so heavy for Kelsie. We cried the whole way home, sad tears. Tears for this young girl who was placing her child with us. The whole night we talked about what Kelsie must be feeling. With no questions asked this was the hardest thing she has done so far in her life. Her bravery and courage are something we will never forget.
It took us until Friday after Kelsie had signed the paperwork for both Jess and I to feel completely safe and let our guard down.However Kelsie has until Feb 2nd to change her mind. We have been consumed with every little breath our son takes. As I mentioned he is a big boy and doing big boy things or so we think . I suppose it is a first time parent thing. He rolled over on his side today, he found his thumb and has been sucking his finger, and he holds his bottle. Before you know it he'll be going to the refrigerator and bringing his bottle to us!
Last night our son had his first bath and he loved it! I'm not sure if it was more exciting for him or us, but we took tons of picture cause it is one of those things we'll want to remember.
The hospitality here has exceeded all expectations. Every night we have a home cooked meal either by Darci or Deb, great company, use of washer/dryer, and a basement all to ourselves. Tonight we were invited to Deb's for a Thanksgiving dinner. She thought it would be appropriate, and boy was it delicious.
I must go feed the little one... but I will write soon.
Stay tuned.
I was going to write about all the challenges we have endured so that you all could get the picture of what we have been going through but I have decided to leave those details out. I am mainly going to share the incredible joy Jess and I are feeling.
The first night we came home with our child was difficult. It was about 7:30pm and we had been at the hospital since 12 noon waiting. We were told Kelsie would be discharged by then, that was not the case. That day was filled with so many emotions but the most difficult part was the transfer of our little son from Kelsie to us.I will paint a picture for you. Kelsie needed to leave the hospital in a wheelchair with the baby in a car seat in her lap. There was an entourage of people around and someone was videotaping, Jesse was told to take the car seat from Kelsie's lap and place it in our car. Kelsie was hysterical, her pain almost unbearable for us to witness. Jess put the car seat in our car and then Kelsie sat in the back seat and sobbed while she said goodbye to the child she just gave birth too. I can not imagine what that must have been like for her, but watching it was extremely difficult. There was absolutely no way for us to keep it together. Tears flowed uncontrollably from our eyes.Our hearts ached so terribly for Kelsie. As we drove away although it was one of the happiest moments for us, our hearts were so heavy for Kelsie. We cried the whole way home, sad tears. Tears for this young girl who was placing her child with us. The whole night we talked about what Kelsie must be feeling. With no questions asked this was the hardest thing she has done so far in her life. Her bravery and courage are something we will never forget.
It took us until Friday after Kelsie had signed the paperwork for both Jess and I to feel completely safe and let our guard down.However Kelsie has until Feb 2nd to change her mind. We have been consumed with every little breath our son takes. As I mentioned he is a big boy and doing big boy things or so we think . I suppose it is a first time parent thing. He rolled over on his side today, he found his thumb and has been sucking his finger, and he holds his bottle. Before you know it he'll be going to the refrigerator and bringing his bottle to us!
Last night our son had his first bath and he loved it! I'm not sure if it was more exciting for him or us, but we took tons of picture cause it is one of those things we'll want to remember.
The hospitality here has exceeded all expectations. Every night we have a home cooked meal either by Darci or Deb, great company, use of washer/dryer, and a basement all to ourselves. Tonight we were invited to Deb's for a Thanksgiving dinner. She thought it would be appropriate, and boy was it delicious.
I must go feed the little one... but I will write soon.
Stay tuned.
Friday, January 16, 2009
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Heaven
The last 24 hours have been heaven. Holding the baby, changing diapers, giving him a bottle, burping him, watching him sleep. All of it magical!
Once we get through tomorrow I will be able to truely relax and let my guard down.We should receive a call from the attorney around noon telling us that Kelsie has signed the official paperwork. Included in the paperwork is a form reducing the amount of time that Kelsie can change her mind from 30 days to 10 working days. It should then take the attorneys 3-5 working days until they call us and tell us we are free to travel back to California with our son.
I am resistant to write too much about everything, including how wonderful today was.
Thanks to everyone for your continued support encouragement, and prayers.
I must return to staring at the baby...
Once we get through tomorrow I will be able to truely relax and let my guard down.We should receive a call from the attorney around noon telling us that Kelsie has signed the official paperwork. Included in the paperwork is a form reducing the amount of time that Kelsie can change her mind from 30 days to 10 working days. It should then take the attorneys 3-5 working days until they call us and tell us we are free to travel back to California with our son.
I am resistant to write too much about everything, including how wonderful today was.
Thanks to everyone for your continued support encouragement, and prayers.
I must return to staring at the baby...
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Baby Time
We arrived home this evening to Zach and Darci's with our beautiful son.
The celebration does not take place until after Friday when Kelsie signs the official paperwork. Until then we will be praying and continuing to think positive.
Today was extremely stressful and once I decide it is time to put this baby down I will write about it, but for now I am holding him all night long and we are introducing each other to one another. Oh sweet bliss...
The celebration does not take place until after Friday when Kelsie signs the official paperwork. Until then we will be praying and continuing to think positive.
Today was extremely stressful and once I decide it is time to put this baby down I will write about it, but for now I am holding him all night long and we are introducing each other to one another. Oh sweet bliss...
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
The Lobby
We spent the whole day at the hospital.The day was filled with so many different emotions. It was a strange and intense day. There were many visitors for Kelsie, friends, social workers, teachers, and relatives. For the most part Jess and I sat in the lobby trying to maintain. We did our best to be invisible and grant Kelsie her wish of spending the first 48 hours with the baby. It was a struggle. Every minute I wanted to run up to Kelsie's room and hold the baby and every minute Jess reminded me to breath. Every other minute I reminded Jess to breath. How could we be so close yet so far away? With great restraint we managed to only go to Kelsie's room a few times. Because the room was always filled with people it was hard to get a good look at the big boy, plus he was bundled in a blanket and Kelsie had a strong hold on him, she was not letting him go . I so badly wanted to hold him, talk to him, squeeze him, smell him and kiss him but that never happened.
We try to imagine what Kelsie is feeling, and are extremely sensitive to her needs but I had no idea how hard it would be.
You would not be able to tell that Jess and I are new parents unless you are in a room alone with us. In front of the hospital crowds we are just two ordinary people waiting in the lobby. But that will change very soon.
Tomorrow or actually today since it past 12:00am we will be shouting from the rooftops, "Who's your Daddy? Who's your Momma?"
We can use all your positive energy sometime around noon, that is when the transition should be taking place.
Listen carefully for the cries of joy...that will be Jess and I.
We try to imagine what Kelsie is feeling, and are extremely sensitive to her needs but I had no idea how hard it would be.
You would not be able to tell that Jess and I are new parents unless you are in a room alone with us. In front of the hospital crowds we are just two ordinary people waiting in the lobby. But that will change very soon.
Tomorrow or actually today since it past 12:00am we will be shouting from the rooftops, "Who's your Daddy? Who's your Momma?"
We can use all your positive energy sometime around noon, that is when the transition should be taking place.
Listen carefully for the cries of joy...that will be Jess and I.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Finally Three
It was a very intense and long day but worth every single minute.
At 10:12pm Jan 12, 2009 our BIG baby boy was born weighing in at a whopping 9lbs 1.3oz and 21 3/4 inches long. He is BEAUTIFUL!
Just got home and it is 2pm. We will do our best to post some pictures tomorrow and write much more.
For now the new parents are turning out the light.
All our love-
At 10:12pm Jan 12, 2009 our BIG baby boy was born weighing in at a whopping 9lbs 1.3oz and 21 3/4 inches long. He is BEAUTIFUL!
Just got home and it is 2pm. We will do our best to post some pictures tomorrow and write much more.
For now the new parents are turning out the light.
All our love-
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Happy Birthday Jesse
Arrived in Minnesota yesterday around 2pm.My nephew and his fiance picked us up at the airport, stopped to have sandwiches because we were starved. Not only do the airlines no longer serve food, but they don't even give you a bag of peanuts!
The weather is cold but tolerable. It is beautiful here and white!
Zach and Darci drove us around their neighborhood stopping at a lake close by that was frozen. People walking, dogs running, kites flying, it was fairyland. I was so excited to see my first "ice house" and fisherman. People really fish, standing in the freezing cold!Crazy.
We were excited to see Zach and Darci's home which they purchase 6 month ago or so. It is darling, charming, warm, inviting, and it feels like "home." To the basement we went where we will live for the next week. It's perfect, a bed, a computer, a sitting area with couch and TV. We could not ask for anything more.
Visited with Z and D for about an hour and then off to meet Kelsie, Savannah, Amy, and Boh for dinner. It was great to see Kelsie and her belly again, we missed them. She was beautiful, definitely uncomfortable and ready to have the baby. After dinner Jess and I took Kelsie to a coffee shop to catch up alone. So glad we had the opportunity. Great conversation, learned alot more about Kelsie and how mature and bright she is and then since Kelsie didn't know how to direct us back to the freeway we stopped at the lounge/bar where Amy was to get directions.
We stayed with Amy and Boh for a few hours talking and got home around 12pm. Five minutes after we got home Z and D came home and we visited for another hour. Late night.
Jesse is another year older today and I am celebrating him! Woke up late and had to be at brunch at noon. Kelsie invited her girlfiends Stephanie and Amy to join us and Amy invited her 2 sisters to join us. Everyone was very nice. Kind of a strange feeling being the "California couple" who have come to adopt the baby Kelsie is about to give birth to.
After brunch we went to the hospital so that they could give Kelsie prostaglandin gel. It is supposed to help ripen her cervix. She stayed in the hospital for a few hours and then they sent her home. She was dilated to 3cm and her cervix looks ready. The nurse said 50% chance she could go into labor tonight. If she does not go into labor tonight, she is to go to the hospital in the morning at 7:30am to be induced.
It was a long day, lots of emotions. Jess and I did our best to stay positive and light hearted.
When we arrived back at Zach's they had a delicious dinner ready for us and how cute are they? A chocolate chocolate birthday cake for the Jesster. We celebrated and delighted in their company.
Totally exhausted. Going to bed with our phones next to us, ready to be back at the hospital in a moments notice.
Jesse thanks you all for the birthday wishes. I promise to do my best to keep you updated as our story unfolds.
Until tomorrow...
The weather is cold but tolerable. It is beautiful here and white!
Zach and Darci drove us around their neighborhood stopping at a lake close by that was frozen. People walking, dogs running, kites flying, it was fairyland. I was so excited to see my first "ice house" and fisherman. People really fish, standing in the freezing cold!Crazy.
We were excited to see Zach and Darci's home which they purchase 6 month ago or so. It is darling, charming, warm, inviting, and it feels like "home." To the basement we went where we will live for the next week. It's perfect, a bed, a computer, a sitting area with couch and TV. We could not ask for anything more.
Visited with Z and D for about an hour and then off to meet Kelsie, Savannah, Amy, and Boh for dinner. It was great to see Kelsie and her belly again, we missed them. She was beautiful, definitely uncomfortable and ready to have the baby. After dinner Jess and I took Kelsie to a coffee shop to catch up alone. So glad we had the opportunity. Great conversation, learned alot more about Kelsie and how mature and bright she is and then since Kelsie didn't know how to direct us back to the freeway we stopped at the lounge/bar where Amy was to get directions.
We stayed with Amy and Boh for a few hours talking and got home around 12pm. Five minutes after we got home Z and D came home and we visited for another hour. Late night.
Jesse is another year older today and I am celebrating him! Woke up late and had to be at brunch at noon. Kelsie invited her girlfiends Stephanie and Amy to join us and Amy invited her 2 sisters to join us. Everyone was very nice. Kind of a strange feeling being the "California couple" who have come to adopt the baby Kelsie is about to give birth to.
After brunch we went to the hospital so that they could give Kelsie prostaglandin gel. It is supposed to help ripen her cervix. She stayed in the hospital for a few hours and then they sent her home. She was dilated to 3cm and her cervix looks ready. The nurse said 50% chance she could go into labor tonight. If she does not go into labor tonight, she is to go to the hospital in the morning at 7:30am to be induced.
It was a long day, lots of emotions. Jess and I did our best to stay positive and light hearted.
When we arrived back at Zach's they had a delicious dinner ready for us and how cute are they? A chocolate chocolate birthday cake for the Jesster. We celebrated and delighted in their company.
Totally exhausted. Going to bed with our phones next to us, ready to be back at the hospital in a moments notice.
Jesse thanks you all for the birthday wishes. I promise to do my best to keep you updated as our story unfolds.
Until tomorrow...
Friday, January 9, 2009
Minnesota Bound
We have booked our flights and are leaving tomorrow Saturday the 10th for Minnesota on the 6:50am plane. Janet we will be ready and waiting for you to pick us up!
Yesterday I was talking to Kelsie and she said she was wondering if Jess and I would consider coming to "hang out" before the baby comes. There was no question about it for us, only what day and how quickly we could get there. Before we could blink an eye we made our arrangements.
All night long we thought about "hanging out" with Kelsie and her belly!
Our hearts have ached for some time now to be close to Kelsie and now we are less than 30 hours away.
For us it is unbelievable that in a short amount of time we will be welcoming a new baby into this world!
Stay tuned...
Yesterday I was talking to Kelsie and she said she was wondering if Jess and I would consider coming to "hang out" before the baby comes. There was no question about it for us, only what day and how quickly we could get there. Before we could blink an eye we made our arrangements.
All night long we thought about "hanging out" with Kelsie and her belly!
Our hearts have ached for some time now to be close to Kelsie and now we are less than 30 hours away.
For us it is unbelievable that in a short amount of time we will be welcoming a new baby into this world!
Stay tuned...
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Due Date
It is hard to believe we are at this point...THE DUE DATE. It seems unreal. We have been waiting all day for "the call," and we still wait. Every time the phone rings my heart skips a beat.
Talked to some girlfriends tonight and reminisced about where our adoption started with the Foster Adopt program to where we are now.
This process of adoption started years ago for Jess and I. Who would of ever imagined it would take so long to get to where we are now? Certainly not us. There is a foreign calm about this place, a place where we have never been but a place that feels perfectly aligned.
We are going to hold one another extra tight tonight...waiting!
Talked to some girlfriends tonight and reminisced about where our adoption started with the Foster Adopt program to where we are now.
This process of adoption started years ago for Jess and I. Who would of ever imagined it would take so long to get to where we are now? Certainly not us. There is a foreign calm about this place, a place where we have never been but a place that feels perfectly aligned.
We are going to hold one another extra tight tonight...waiting!
Monday, January 5, 2009
Uncontrollable nervousness
Another day is close to an end. Throughout the day anticipation maneuvered its way through my body, but I was quick to put it back in it's place. Jesse and I talked a few times while I was at work, doing our best to keep one another balanced.
Talked to Amy, Kelsie's Mom tonight. Everything was fine, Kelsie was in bed exhausted from a day of activity.
Jess and I watched a movie hoping it would take our minds off of our situation just for a short while but it was not successful. My legs were restless and I could barely keep still. Trying to control the nervous tension is impossible, so we are now contemplating going out for a walk to calm ourselves, but that means bundling up in warm clothes cause it is cold outside. I suppose it would be a good for us to get used to the cold cause it is freezing in Minnesota!
Tomorrow is Kelsie's actual due date... January 6th! At this point it is anyone's guess as to when the little one will come, but one thing is foresure he will be here in less than 10days!
Talked to Amy, Kelsie's Mom tonight. Everything was fine, Kelsie was in bed exhausted from a day of activity.
Jess and I watched a movie hoping it would take our minds off of our situation just for a short while but it was not successful. My legs were restless and I could barely keep still. Trying to control the nervous tension is impossible, so we are now contemplating going out for a walk to calm ourselves, but that means bundling up in warm clothes cause it is cold outside. I suppose it would be a good for us to get used to the cold cause it is freezing in Minnesota!
Tomorrow is Kelsie's actual due date... January 6th! At this point it is anyone's guess as to when the little one will come, but one thing is foresure he will be here in less than 10days!
Sunday, January 4, 2009
False alarm
What are those terribly painful cramp like sensations?
We received a phone call on Thursday night from Amy, Kelsie's Mom saying," Are you ready to be parents?" All I can say is I have never seen Jesse jump so fast from the couch in all the years I have known him. Kelsie was having contractions, her belly was hard, and her back was killing her. Quickly Jesse and I finished packing and patiently waited with the phone next to us.
Friday Kelsie had a Doctor's appointment, and she was told she was not in labor but everything looks good and the baby is definitely in the right position.
Saturday night as Jess and I were driving to my parents for a quick visit we received a call from Amy who said, "it looks like things may be happening, Kelsie is having contractions and they are 7 minutes apart." Jess and I just stared at each other like OMG...what does this mean? Well apparently it did not mean that Kelsie was in labor either because by this morning when we talked with Kelsie she was no longer having contractions.
So we wait...trying to keep ourselves busy...and not go crazy. Surprisingly we are quite calm, enjoying one another, giggling an awful lot and patiently waiting! It is a strange wonderful place to be.
We received a phone call on Thursday night from Amy, Kelsie's Mom saying," Are you ready to be parents?" All I can say is I have never seen Jesse jump so fast from the couch in all the years I have known him. Kelsie was having contractions, her belly was hard, and her back was killing her. Quickly Jesse and I finished packing and patiently waited with the phone next to us.
Friday Kelsie had a Doctor's appointment, and she was told she was not in labor but everything looks good and the baby is definitely in the right position.
Saturday night as Jess and I were driving to my parents for a quick visit we received a call from Amy who said, "it looks like things may be happening, Kelsie is having contractions and they are 7 minutes apart." Jess and I just stared at each other like OMG...what does this mean? Well apparently it did not mean that Kelsie was in labor either because by this morning when we talked with Kelsie she was no longer having contractions.
So we wait...trying to keep ourselves busy...and not go crazy. Surprisingly we are quite calm, enjoying one another, giggling an awful lot and patiently waiting! It is a strange wonderful place to be.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Happy New Year
Let 2009 bring change, hope and an abundance of joy and peace.
Jess and I talked to Kelsie today and wished her a Happy New Year. I hope she knows how happy she has already made this year for us. I imagine she does, but not to the deep depths of our core. It is strange how freely our hearts are open when only a short while ago the pain restricted even a thought of vulnerability.
We took out two small suitcases today and have made a commitment to pack this weekend. I suppose it must feel like packing the "overnight bag" to take to the hospital. We will be ready to go as soon as the "phone call"comes. As surreal as it is, it feels absolutely right.
To get to this point it took several pieces of a puzzle to be put together perfectly. First of all it took my nephew Zach to get engaged to Darci and move to Minnesota. Then it took Zach's soon to be Mother-in-law Deb to think of us when she ran into Kelsie at her Mothers 90th birthday party. Then it took Deb and Zach to talk about it, Zach to have the courage to call his Mother (my sister) even though he was a bit reluctant and for good reason, and then it took my sister Gaby to take a chance and call me and put it out there.Gaby said she never thought twice about it, she just picked up the phone and dialed! Unbelievable! I must also say that Jesse gets credit for breaking down my brick wall, bringing me to a place of less resistance where I could see more clearly and believe just like him that this was a "sign."
Believing that everything happens exactly the way it supposed to...Happy New Year!
Jess and I talked to Kelsie today and wished her a Happy New Year. I hope she knows how happy she has already made this year for us. I imagine she does, but not to the deep depths of our core. It is strange how freely our hearts are open when only a short while ago the pain restricted even a thought of vulnerability.
We took out two small suitcases today and have made a commitment to pack this weekend. I suppose it must feel like packing the "overnight bag" to take to the hospital. We will be ready to go as soon as the "phone call"comes. As surreal as it is, it feels absolutely right.
To get to this point it took several pieces of a puzzle to be put together perfectly. First of all it took my nephew Zach to get engaged to Darci and move to Minnesota. Then it took Zach's soon to be Mother-in-law Deb to think of us when she ran into Kelsie at her Mothers 90th birthday party. Then it took Deb and Zach to talk about it, Zach to have the courage to call his Mother (my sister) even though he was a bit reluctant and for good reason, and then it took my sister Gaby to take a chance and call me and put it out there.Gaby said she never thought twice about it, she just picked up the phone and dialed! Unbelievable! I must also say that Jesse gets credit for breaking down my brick wall, bringing me to a place of less resistance where I could see more clearly and believe just like him that this was a "sign."
Believing that everything happens exactly the way it supposed to...Happy New Year!
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