Finally 3

WHOO HOO- It is official- we have a son!

How long have we wanted to be 3? Years. Our adoption process began in the parking lot of Kaiser hospital on a warm afternoon in 2004. A day I will never forget...the day we knew we would never be pregnant.

Since that time we have put our efforts towards adopting a child, without ever dreaming it would take us so long to find our son. I never imagined our child to be a newborn, my idea was different. Now I can not imagine missing out on the first 21days of our sons life. It has been wondrous.

As I said before the brick walls are not there to keep us out just to show us how much we want something. And boy did we want a child. For those of you that have followed our journey you know how many walls we hit along the way. I can honestly say that every wall was worth the last 21 days!

Both Jess and I woke up this morning feeling completely uneasy. Of all days we wanted this day to pass quickly, but each hour seemed to drag on. I kept myself busy doing things around the house and tried not to look at the clock every five minutes. At a few different times during the day my heart began to race uncontrollably as if I was going to have a panic attack. Somehow I talked myself into a normal breathing pattern and became calm.

It was around 4:30 when we received a message from Deb in Minnesota saying, "congratulations, it's official." For some reason we thought we needed to wait until midnight tonight for it to be official, but thank goodness we were wrong. Kelsie had up until 4:30pm Minnesota time today to change her mind. What an incredible gift this young girl has given us...our gift to her will be that we raise a productive, responsible, loving human being.

Again I am reminded of the pieces of the puzzle that had to come together to make this all happen...it is a miracle!

Jesse and I are resonating in the powerful exchange of life. An abundance of deep emotions surfacing. The three of us will now embark on this new journey together.

Thanks to all of you across the US who helped to manifest the positive energy that carried us to this point. Believing that everything happens exactly the way it is supposed to.

Going to smooch the baby and squeeze my husband and tell him how thankful I am of him that he never gave up, even after his heart was broken.

I will write again soon- so much to say- All our love